Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Sorry that i took so long to update my blog.. coz my com was down .. hahaz.. thanx teckwee for fixing it..
Anyway, i went to my fist chalet in my life on sun!! haha.. although i stayed over for one night onli.. it was fun!! hahaz.. we arranged to meet at bedok mrt coz got more buses to the east coast chalet from there... then we went to giant to buy stuff needed for bbq.. hahaz.. then cross the road to take the shutle bus.. then witness a bike accident.. the canadian pizza bike had a minor accident.. it wasnt that bad.. he had a few scratches onli i think.. then we missed the shuttle bus coz of the bike..wanted to wait for the next one.. but i will take us more than half n hr.. so we decided to take 401 instead.. hahaz..
When we reached there, i saw someone pushing a cart n i thought was the ice cream man coz i talked so much n was thirsty ma.. haha.. but was the cleaner cart.. haha.. my frens laughed at me lo as usual.. hahaz.. when we reached the chalet, i was shocked.. both chalets were filled with ppl from other class le.. n they were playing mahjong.. haiz.. spolit our mood.. then we drop our stuff in a rm then went down to get the bbq started.. that mr ong from another class hor.. he is hopeless.. waste so many fire starters n still cant get the pit done.. while khairul did it in a shorter time than him.. so we bbq for our class onli.. haha.. eat n talk then went out to walk.. then eat n talk.. then alison talked me into taking off my contacts n wear spec.. hahaz..
After dinner, our class occupied the onli rm in the chalet.. the aircon was on but the rm was warm due to overcrowding.. hahaz.. we took lots of crazy photos.. talked.. had girls talk with ms tan..then played tai di n the loser will play truth or dare.. hahaz.. had a class bondin session.. quite fun though.. then joel n others left first.. after mayping they all came which is rather late alreadi.. then serxing they all left.. so sad.. at that time onli me alison jasmine khairul hongyi shihern mayping joleen sien was around.. then hongyi n khairul went to 7-11 to get drinks n rented bike.. then those stayin overnight wanna ride too.. hahaz.. so we(shihern hongyi khairul alison jasmine n of course me la.. haha) took a bike from the other class n the 2 bikes to go n change for double bike at bout 11+.. we took turns to walk n cycle.. suppose one guy give one girl a ride.. but we girls shy ma.. hahaz..
but we got the double bike for $18.. so x.. but since is shared cost.. nvm la.. fun can le.. hahaz.. then shihern going home le.. so jasmine n khairul took double bike as jasmine dunno how to cycle..then alison was from a girls sch ma.. so i sacrificed myself to b on a guy's bike to cycle back to the chalet.. then poor hongyi hav to do it.. haha.. then we were racing with each other to get back to the chalet.. so fun.. hahaz(coz i dun need to cycle).. then when we reached there, mayping they all includin shi hern hav to go home le..haha.. then shihern satay was on fire haha.....onli me jasmine alison khairul n hongyi stayin for the night..
after that, if im not wrong, our chalet was dark n keyless.. ms tan was nowhere in sight.. then we had to wait outside the chalet.. called ms tan phone so many times n she didnt answer it.. then finally she came back n her phone was in the chalet lo.. then called mr ong.. that idiot guy took the key n is in the k box at marine parade lo.. ai yo!!!... so ms tan hongyi n khairul went there to get the keys while the girls waited outside chatting sleeply.. hahaz
they finally came back.. then we were starved.. so had instant noodles while we took turns to bath coz we r all sweaty.. hahaz.. then onli played one round of mahjong.. n hongyi didnt bring change of clothes n i was wearin a shirt that was larger in size ( coz more comfortable to sleep in ma) then i gave my shirt to hongyi to wear.. haha.. look like tight shirt on him.. but better than wearin back the same shirt after bathing ma.. then we were all quite exhausted it was bout 3 plus 4 le ma.. so we all wanted to sleep.. thoughtful khairul n hongyi changed the bed sheet for us..
then some guys from the f maths didnt bath n slept on the bed..haha.. then they wanna be up at 3.30 to go off n do stuff.. then we invaded the rm after they left.. ms tan n me shared a bed while me n alison shared another bed while khairul n hongyi shared the mattress.. that time was bout 4 le.. then the girls shared our love stories with each other as bed time story.. then we agreed on watchin the sun rise together..
at 5, ms tan woke up.. then i woke up too.. but mysterically.. hahaz.. i was energetic n not half dead.. haha.. so i made a bit of noise then got scolded by jasmine n alison.. hahaz.. oops.. then i decided to rest my eyes.. then khairul n hongyi woke up at bout 5.45.. then the 3 of us cycle to the bedok jetty without jasmine alison coz they asked me to keep quiet n not disturb their sleep as jas is a person who dun sleep that easily.. then i saw man half naked sweeping the floor.. veri surprised that they r so muscular.. so scary coz i was imagining them with chain saws.. haha.. i watched too many horror movies le.. then i saw the sunrise.. so beautiful.. the first sunrise that i saw.. i managed to get hold of hongyi phone n read the inbox.. then khiarul took it to explore n read the drafts section.. then hongyi snatched it back to delete all.. khairul refuse to tell me wat the message was.. he onli said that hongyi typed all the message then didnt send it.. then at 6.37 we cycled back..
then jasmine n alison was angry with me for goin off without them n not waking them up.. coz they woke up n found that all their friends r missing.. i m so sorry n guilty.. so i walked out of the chalet to the beach n reflected.. i was myself again.. the melancholy me.. i suppose some of u dun believe it.. anyway.. i was thinkin n thinkin then i refused to pick up calls n reply message from khairul n hongyi.. then out of a sudden, hongyi sat bside me.. then i was annoyed.. hahaz.. so asked him to go back.. then he refused.. stubborn guy.. so i was stubborn back lo.. he said khairul n the rest went to send peixia off.. then i went to climb the rocks n he followed.. that stubborn mule.. fine lo.. then sat there for a while.. then i decided to go back... coz i know that pig beside is hungry but im not hungry.. mayb coz im so sad that im not hungry bah..
then watched him eat bread with kaya while i had cornflakes without milk.. then they came back.. jasmine was complaining that her butt hurts.. haha.. then we realised that all of ours hurt too.. haha.. then jasmine n alison not angry le.. hahaz.. so relieved.. but i know its my fault..sorry.. then khairul says he cant stand me with spec.. haha.. so i put on my contacts again with alison.. then jasmin khiarul ms tan n hongyi went upstairs to sleep.. then me n alison went around cycling.. haha.. so fun.. then we went back to ask for the bike recipts to return the bike as it is almost 10 le..then hongyi followed us to return the bike.. me n alison went to rent skates.. hahaz.. then we dunno fall how many times lo.. then we accompanied hongyi back.. he walk oso faster than we skate leh.. we r such a loser.. hahaz.. then we sktaed around.. got better n better .. hahaz.. then went to mac for ice cream.. so shiok.. hahaz..
then we skated back to the chalet to get out shoes.. then ms tan wanna try skating too.. then we left her outside to put on the gears while the rest of us in the house pack our bags.. then ms tan hor.. she thought the wrist guard is the elbow guard.. so she pulled it all the way up.. haha.. so funny.. then we push her out with lots of difficulty.. hahaz.. then we returned the skates n went to mac for lunch.. but me n alison didnt eat coz was full.. hahaz.. then we went to bowl.. n i sux.. hahaz.. oh no.. haha.. then we coazed jasmine into bowling.. she bowled for me.. hahaz.. then she top all leh.. hahaz.. ms tan n alison oso bowl for the first time onli.. hahaz.. then we went home..
took a bus to woodlands with khairul n hongyi.. sleep the whole trip.. hahaz.. so tired lo.. then took a train back.. n i was freezing cold n feel tired n thirsty.. hahaz.. then took a bus home.. then teckwee came over to fix the com for me.. haha.. thanx.. then thats all for ytd.. hahaz..
i wonder if any of u read til here.. haha.. coz this entry is super long.. took me an hour coz was eating at the same time.. hahaz.. anyway..i figured my feelings out le.. im so elated over it.. i m so confident that im not interested in him coz there wasnt any chemistry at all.. hahaz.. yeah!!.. hahaz.. i hope he doesnt either.. hahaz.. kk.. gtg n b a secretory n do my work le.. hahaz..
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Muhahahaahah!!! My chem spa over le!! yeah!! the last test of the test.. a little nervous during the test hope i did okie.. at least my calculation is okie i think... hahaz..
Sometimes other teachers will come into the class to supervise the teacher,rite?? Guess wat... 4 teachers came in to supervise my maths teacher lo.. haha.. so funny.. then mr yong is as lame as ever... hahaz..
Then hor.. i kena fooled by my younger bro.. can u believe it?? im so silly.. he lie to me that they brought home the black dog from yishun park n its kept outside my house in a cage.. then i say i didnt hear any dog bark wat.. then he say coz its shivering ma.. then too scared.. then i wanted to go out to check out the dog lo.. then he say he bluff me one.. so sad lo.. hahaz.. im so dumb.. hahaz..
Then today have last GP period with Ms Sim.. haha.. shit.. the PBL havent do yet lo.. wah lao a... haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz..
Then no cca.. yeah!! hehez.. then went to ang mo kio Mac n do work.. so sianz.. u know la.. im not the kind who go home so early de ma.. hehez.. so sianz.. got tutorials to do.. hehez.. gtg.. smelly me.. havent bath.. hahaz..
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Let's see...
My bio relief teacher left.. so a new one from NIE came..
My GP teacher resigned.. so there will be a new NIE teacher too..
My econs teacher going for a course til NOv.. so a NIE teacher will be taking over...
How great is that rite??
I take 6 subjects n half of the teachers are going to change..
However, the new bio teacher is damn cool.. She does volunteer work and she dives n sails n she is clever with gd looks and she is muscular not that muscular as those like from man hunt but fit.. haha.. that is so cool.. haha.. i look up to her.. she is damn cool... hahaz.. i hope that i will be like her.. n she goes for bagpack tour lo.. hahaz.. so jealous..
Then afternoon pe is cancelled coz of the weather.. then i end up in the movie theatre with jiahui to watch house of wax.. how nice.. instead of excerising, i end up eating rotiboy n polkee... hahaz.. naughty me.. so i climbed up 10 floors.. hahaz.. then the movie is nice n scary.. hehez.. but the theatre is so empty.. less than 10 audience lo.. haha.. i think im the noisiest there as usual.. hehez...then someone scold me.. say tml got chem spa then i still go movie.. hehe.. im such a naughty girl..
Then on my way home.. i decided that im going to hit the gym on tues n fri.. haha.. then sleep early n wake up early.. n eat lots of fruits n vege to try n get rid of the pimples on my face.. haha.. my long is getting longer n im lookin more n more haggard i realise.. *i hope i didnt spell it wrongly coz my spelling sux* haha.. going to bun up my hair tml n look like a old ah ma.. hehez..
k.. i gtg n study le.. now im feeling nervous bout tml. die.. hehe.. byes..
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Saturday, May 21, 2005
MIraclously i woke up at 7.. on time leh.. meetin the others at 9 at habour front.. but meet minli n jiahui at 7.50.. hahaz.. then hor we waited til bout 10 for everyone to assemble.. hahaz.. veri early hor.. haha.. then went to sentosa.. saw that another aj class is there too.. hahaz.. then when we reached there the sea is so tempting.. so blue n green that i feel like juz jumping in n swim.. but i cant.. so sad lo.. i can onli watch jiahui n minli n alison play in the sea.. haha.. then peiying n me watching..
then we played volleyball.. then the guys play soccer half naked.. didnt know they all so fit de.. then they went to play soccer in the sea.. haha.. saw him n we didnt even talk.. brought back many memories.. haha.. a pity.. anyway.. had instant noodles for lunch.. haha.. not filling lo.. hahz.. then we went to bath coz we r salty and itchy.. haha.. came out of the toilet then kat n dine n weizi n mark they all come.. now the party starts.. had cake n took photo..
saw many many ppl..
heartache quite a lot coz there is undoubtly distances between..
heart was warmed that they knew i existed..
sadded that i lost touch with some for so long..
happy that we have this get together..
disappointed that i cant play in the sea..
delighted that they are smiling..
no sun to tan unfortunately..
but no rain to dampen our spirits..
bruised all over (realli all over)..
healed some friendship..
'if only' was in many sentences..
hope was in too..
so is there hope?? ..
after that me n jiahui went to town to look for melissa they all for dinner.. hahaz.. went to arcade to destress.. then we play ruleless snooker.. hahaz.. then went to play pool... hahaz.. then rush home as usual.. haha..
i, hereby, sincerely thank u ALL!! u ppl make my day.. thanx for the beautiful n fantastic n nice presents that cant b any better.. haha.. im realli touched deep down for all.. wat matters is the thought.. this is one fantastic birthday celebration i hav.. thanx ppl.. it wun hav happen without your presence..
Thanx those in OP that went to sentosa for fun n tanning.. Thanx those in NYJC that went out for dinner with me.. thanx those AJC friends that noted my birthday.. thanx all that remember my birthday.. thanx.. .. i wun forget my birthday this year.. No matter how i tired i m, i still came online to blog to inform u all.. i LOVE U GUYS... U GUYS MADE MY DAY.. THANX man.. im happy beyond words... thanx..
Friday, May 20, 2005
Friday, May 20, 2005
haha.. today i was realli naughti.. firstly.. we r suppose to hav chinese tutorial after bio tutorial.. then today is ms tan last day ma... so we were sort of having a party at the canteen.. then we strolled the way up for chinese tutorial.. about 15 mins late.. haha.. we were the first few to arrive.. then the teacher bloody pissed with my class.. when she was scolding, she mention something bout next time when u meet your friends at 5, u will turn up at 6.. then me n alison start to giggle.. hahaz.. coz the other day i was suppose to meet derrick at 5 then i turn up at 6.. hahaz..
then, we are suppose to have gp after lunch.. but we dun wanna go .. we wanna go n support my classmate in badminton against tj.. haha.. so we told the teacher n we cant dun go for mass civics n gp.. hahaz.. so bad hor.. then aj lost.. so sad.. i couldnt imagine myself cheering for Aj in the past.. i guess i accepted that im in aj finally..
then wanted to go n watch bb finals.. TJ VS HCI at toa payoh.. but we were at jurong east.. by the time we reach there, the bb will b over soon.. so no point.. so end up me alison jasmine n serxing went to town.. it was 4 when we reach town n i havent had anything since 6.30.. hahaz.. so i was starved.. then they brought me around town.. surprise that im such a country pumpkin.. then they say they will bring me out one day durin the june hoilday.. haha.. coz im a town idiot.. hahaz.. then took neo print n here i m at home.. hahaz.. im such a naughty girl today..
Then my fren was thinking too much today.. hahaz.. n i told her.. i wanna b blur throughout my JC life n pretend i dunno anything xcept my studies n cca.. hahaz.. naughty me..
Thursday, May 19, 2005
Thursday, May 19, 2005
this morning, i woke up at 3 coz my right leg cramp.. haha.. veri painful.. tried messaging it but didnt realli help.. but i cant do anything either .. so i endure the pain painfully n continued messaging til it was better.. then when i told my mum juz now, she said that the same thing happen to her last night.. haha.. wat a conincidence..
Then had a plastic pe again.. this time we had to do it in the field lo.. so embarrassing!!.. got people running their 2.4 lo n 10 rounds lo.. then we were like entertaining the pe teachers too.. but the actions are so funny.. i couldnt help laughin.. haha.. i laugh on my way there n back.. the amusing thing is, we saw one of our classmate at the end.. then when we reach the other end, she was there too.. haha.. veri lame hor..
Then thanx ppl!! All those that sms me... thanx for remembering my birthday though i havent talk to u ppl for so long... i realli realli wanna thank those that bought me a card n bagpack.. haha.. waterproof one somemore.. it didnt look cheap.. thanz Jasmine Alison ShiHern Khairul n HongYi.. i love it alot.. i was speechless when i saw it.. didnt even notice that it was in alison bag the whole morning.. thanx Calista n Serxing, my darlin for the bottle... n many more.. haha.. thanx ppl.. i wasnt expecting any at all coz we onli know each other for such a short time..
thanx.. im lost for words.. hahaz..
then suppose to go n do work with mel today after sch.. haha.. then hor it rained again.. whenever i n mel say go n study together hor it will rain.. haha.. then suppose to meet at 4.40.. end up 5.30.. haha.. so didnt go n do work coz i need to go home for dinner ma.. then we went to the mrt station in the rain n talk til 6..haha.. then the mrt station guy hor.. keep on walking around us.. haha..
In conclusion, thanx all...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
haha.. can u believe it?? my handwriting is so horrible then they make me the secretary.. but hor got a lot of typing n work to do leh.. haha..not that bad la.. then i didnt go to the home today coz have to discuss bout the installation.. then the newly appointed VP pon today lo.. haha.. how nice rite?? i think he will be shocked when he recieve news that he is the VP.. haha..
wasnt in a gd mood today either.. i did it again last night.. so sad.. thankfully today is a short day.. then my chem pre-spa hor.. not that well done.. haha.. a little disappointed in myself.. mayb coz xpectation too high bah.. haha..
i pretty much stoned today away.. ya.. gtg n stone..
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
haha.. today didnt get to c any teacher to ask her to look thru my pi on the spot lo.. a little not happy..then got back maths test.. haha.. fail lo.. as expected.. haha.. My results as follows..
Chem:
C ruelly
Econs:
B rusied
Maths:
A ll
O ver
haha.. veri nice hor.. actually this sort of represent the mood i hav the entire day.. i felt veri bottled up the whole day.. feel like crying n laughing n being angry at the same time.. mayb coz veri stressed.. my eyes got a bit teary durin maths tutorial.. Thanx Alison... she sqeeuze my hand hard.. then i squeeze back.. then relieve some feelings bottled in me.. haha.. felt better..
then went all the way to queensway to get jersey.. haha.. then bargain with the uncle til one costs $15.. haha.. didnt get the adidas one but got the FBT one.. not bad la.. looks nice too.. haha.. then i was late in meeting derrick at Seragoon.. haha.. coz i dunno how to walk to NY from the mrt station.. haha.. i suppose to meet him at 5.15.. n reach at bout 5.50 lo.. haha.. i m so late... haha.. go back to ny coz celebrate elton b-dae which is today n mine at the same time.. haha.. rushed back to cut cake n c them again n sing... haha.. i lied to my mum say do PW.. thats y can stay out so late.. hahaz.. i veri bad hor..
today.. my bio relief teacher was told that this friday will b her last day.. then she came into class with red eyes and red nose.. she told the class that she hav a flu.. then Izhar came in late.. n i lied to him say the teacher cried.. thats y she looked like that.. then the teacher thought i knew she realli cried.. then she told us the truth.. we were shocked.. haha.. didnt know that she so emotional one.. onli know her for bout 2 mths lo.. haha.. then her b-dae is next thurs.. supposely, she will pay for all the food that we order coz got one period of CT to celebrate with her on thurs ma.. now that is unlikely to happen.. then she suggest chalet from 29-31 May.. then she say she will pay for the chalet but we bring food.. our class is so elated!! haha.. foc chalet leh.. But hor.. u know.. dunno my parents will allow or not.. sounds like fun.. can have class bondin at that time too ma.. plus i got horrible results.. haha.. plus my mum b-dae on 31 May lo..plus i goin to MElacca for 2 day.. haha.. stupid hor.. haha..
then there was this cute baby boy.. haha.. forgot to mention. his mum asked him to kiss gdbye to me on the bus then he did it.. hah.. so cute.. then after they alight .. he blow kiss to me at the bust stop.. haha.. so adorable.. haha.. but i still prefer older guys.. hahaz.. kidding..
Juz wanna end off with a Happy Birthday Elton!!
A lyric of a song that is veri meaningful...
不要问 不要说 一切尽在不言中
这一刻 偎着烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手 莫回头 当我唱起这首歌
怕只怕泪水轻轻的滑落
愿心中永远留着我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬
几许愁 几许忧 人生难免苦与痛
失去过 才能真正懂得去珍借和拥有
情难舍 人难留 今朝一别各西东
冷和热 点点滴滴在心头
愿心中永远留着我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬
* 伤离别 离别虽然在眼前
说再见 再见不会太遥远
# 若有缘 有缘就能其待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节
Repeat * # #
不要问 不要说 一切尽在不言中
这一刻 偎着烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手 莫回头 当我唱起这首歌
愿心中留着笑容
有你渡过每个春夏秋冬
-'Zhu Fu' by jackie cheung
Monday, May 16, 2005
Monday, May 16, 2005
FInally man.. FINALLY!!.. haha.. finish all the tests this term le.. haha.. thought that i can get some life back n catch up with my sleep.. BUT TO MY HORROR!! still got PW.. the stupid PI not approved yet.. still have to redo n redo n redo n redo.. haiz..
after taking the tests, now i worry bout how badly i failed.. hahaz.. veri negative hor?? but i know myself n i m mentally prepared... my standard not that gd one.. plus im dumb .. plus paper hard.. plus i so nervous.. its a bad combination.. So, wat does a person get from such combination?? Bad Grades lo.. haha.. wonder if i can get out of the house when i get my maths results.. which is a comfirm fail.. no question asked.. haha.. t
hen today bio test.. got this 3 mark question that i dunno wat they asking bout.. haha.. then the essay question is i anyhow crap de... dunnoe got the point or not..
haiz.. then the gp even worse.. i didnt take geography.. then there was thiss question on tourism... then i cant do.. haha.. then i took the " wat are the challenges that a woman face in your country today?".. haha.. i anyhow crap.. i hope i didnt do off point.. n i finished it in half an hour.. n my answer is rather disorganised.. dunno la.. no mood to do gp after bio lo.. somemore was late for the test coz of the bio but not given extra time.. UNFAIR... but i dun need the time.. haha..
i was doin the chinese AO bk homework n read this compre on friendship.. veri meaningful leh.. wait til i find my chinese software..haha.. then i type n show u ppl.. but the questions are tough.. haha..
today i can slack then too slack.. didnt even touch maths.. die.. tml sure have to rush through trigo.. got 4 tutorials to do then onli do til second one n the teacher is going thru the second one lo.. later i lag behind.. then die.. haiz.. if onli is like sec 4 where the pace is slower... when we can negiotiate deadline and take our time.. the differenciation lectures over le lo.. wonder wats next.. i understand the lecture but havent practise.. die.. haha... thought i can sleep early.. but now so late le.. haha.. havent finish PI ... haha.. ciao ppl.. i promise to call!!
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Sunday, May 15, 2005
today went out to yoshinoya for dinner.. saw a shuai ge mei nu couple.. it set me thinkin of will there b any potential 'he' in my life.. but i know the answer will b a no.. a potential 'he' will add on the uncertainity in my heart..add on the troubles in my heart..
anyway.. i heard of this girl called jane.. who hav the same b-dae as me.. n she was in 1705 in first 3mth in ajc then posted to 10B in nyjc after release of results.. this is such a coincidence coz i was in 10B in nyjc for first 3mth then posted to 1705 in ajc after release of result.. wat a coincidence..haha.. gtg n study for bio test le.. one last test b4 i get to breathe properly again...
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Saturday, May 14, 2005
i practically ran all the way to safra.. forgot that my friends will b late.. ran til i had blisters on my feet coz i was wearin my mum shoes.. onli to find that im the first though i left my house ten minutes after meeting time.. the route there seems shorter than the way back.. i came back with blisters n cut.. who do u know cut herself playing pool? but i felt that my heart was more
bruised..
i could onli go to safra for a short time.. n i still went thinkin that i will get to see my OP friends.. friends that i feel that i hav neglected for a long time since i was posted to aj where the pressure is great esp for a dumb person like me.. something that not many know.. i hav been suppressing feelins within me.. To me, i was so caught up with trying to catch up with my work that i missed my friends.. missed chatting with them over the phone.. being in different schools, kept us apart.. im sooo afraid that the distance bcame so far that i will lose them.. the huge pile of work daily kept me away from the msn.. the tool for me to keep in contact with u all.. but when im online, u r not or either is busy.. days hav been passing too quickly.. b4 i know it, weeks had passed.. test after test.. so caught up that i hardly hav time to stop and think bout wat i had lost.. i think i lost u all.. i doubt that any will b readin this either.. but its better off my chest..
the sec 4 life in OP is one of tears.. tears of joy n saddness..
a time when our friendship is being tested.. now it is being tested again by distance.. n i think im failing.. i failed to find out bout hows their life..fail to be a friend.. n i wun b surprise be that im banished til a mere acquantance..
Then, questions popped into my head saddin me furthur.. isnt it true that if i go n ask, it will juz b a one word answer?? isnt it true that we dun used to do that? Issit true that since u doesnt wan know hows my life, it shows u dun wan me to know bout yours? issit it true that if i innitiate, u will tell me all? issit?? issit true that i have failed coz i didnt hav time to catch up with u while fantically catchin up with work fruitlessly?? the truth that i know is that ppl will interpret my words differently.. so differently that i will upset u ppl instead.. probably i shouldnt hav typed all these out.. but i cant get an answer with in it me.. mayb sayin it out may worsened things but isnt it bad enough alreadi?? hope that i get some answers.. there are many things that i should have done.. but i hav limited resources n time n brain n hands..
i wish i can take leave from school to catch up with friends but if i can take leave, i think it will onli end up with me rushing through tutorials at home tryin to finish it n not get in trouble.. but if i can take leave n heck bout my work n go n look for u guys.. will u still rmb me?? u are busy with your own life that u mayb unable to spend the time with me mayb coz i go at a wrong time..even if i do that, n get to communicate, i think that i will feel more left out than ever.. it will b more obvious that the distance is greater.. more obvious that i dun fit in anymore coz im in a different sch.. more obvious that i hav been left out of your busy lifestyle.. more obvious that im out of your life.. issit it true?? the reason that i dare to write this should b coz i think no one reads my blog xcept for a minority..
Juz wanna say that i wun forget u all coz memory is the only thing that i hav.. isnt it??.. do i still hav u all?? .. i guess im alreadi forgotten.. lost in your head as our cells in the memory part dies..
if you do not mean anything to me, this entry wun be dedicated to u all alreadi..
Saturday, May 14, 2005
haha.. ytd was so tiring..
My class won the class debate!! haha.. yeah!! so happy for them.. the hard work n time spent on it was worth it after all.. well, the opposition team was too soft n didnt rebute.. hence they lost n oso coz we are better .. haha.. we had more research then them n the proposition is the harder party to argue.. then the audience from the floor from their own class shot their own class leh.. haha.. so funny..
there was mass civics today in the audi that showed us bout the ryan's well.. the video was so sad.. tears swelled up in my eyes.. alison noticed it.. haha.. the people in africa is like so unfortunate.. hav to travel so far juz to get water while we are wasting water here in singapore.. this brought me thinkin how i treated water and family for granted and me in my comfort zone..
Then, me serxing n alison walked to queensway shopping centre from queenstown mrt.. we asked for direction and a uncle told us that we can take a bus there.. one stop only.. thinkin that it is realli one stop onli and that my ez-link card hav limited money left.. we walked there.. haha.. it took us bout 15 mins!! haha.. under the big hot sun.. when we reached there, the place is buzzing with activity.. haha.. my first trip there.. we went window shopping.. then saw a few designs..
then we went back to school for cldds performance.. then i askd my fren to help me buy roti boy haha.. coz she reach there early but cant go in without her ticket which is with me.. haha.. then my dinner was roti boy n a sandwich that i bought in the morning.. haha.. i feel that im rather piggy ytd.. had noodles in the morning at 8 then rice at 1 .. so much carbo.. haha.. so i think i rather eat lesser over the weekend..
then i went to cldds with my friends.. my aim purpose of going there is to watch lao da zhu performance.. during the performance, the guy behind drop his hp twice.. haha.. then when he drop it the first time, my bottle drop too.. haha.. so we were like so noisy.. then my fren tried to step on my white OP bag.. haha.. then we were so noisy again.. haha.. then saw many NY familiar faces..
then went to S11 for supper.. but i controlled myself.. watched my friends eat coz i need the $5 in my pocket to top up my ez-link card if not i cant get home.. hahaz.. then updated myself on wat happen to them over the days.. missed the gd old days in NY.. haiz..
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Thursday, May 12, 2005
haha.. so looong not online le!! haha.. haiz.. not that happy bout it..
Lets see.. haha.. there was a couple of the sms quiz bout friends.. haha.. i think that i it not reliable at all.. haha.. coz darlin choice says that i will b the man of her life. haha.. then got a few zi ji.. n ppl who care bout me.. haha.. so sweet.. then of course got bad ones la.. haha..
Had lots of tests.. had econs n maths on mon.. i think i tok bout it le.. then got back my econ test le!! haha.. I passed!! got a B grade.. rather pleased with myself though i xpected that i will score better than that.. then had chem pre spa.. haha.. dun hav the xamination atm there.. not so tense.. haha.. but went smoothly.. then had bio spa.. haiz.. the question was unclear lo.. then i actually started like 40 mins after the thing started.. so i faked out my answers n crapped through.. haiz.. imagine doin it with trembling hands.. even my legs was trembling.. that was how tense i was..
Had pe today.. haha.. realli plastic pe.. the teacher made us go to n fro in the hall with funny actions to strengthen our leg muscles.. then those not taking pe in class was laughing at us like siao lo.. i realised that i dun hav eye hand n leg coordination.. haha.. then everyone was laughin n doin it at the same time lo.. haha.. finally can rest a while.. but need to study for bio test on mon.. sianz.. haha.. sch life is so boring..
YEAH!!.. tml may not be such a bad day.. haha.. lookin forward to tml..
haha.. ciaoz for now..
Monday, May 09, 2005
Monday, May 09, 2005
Was awaiting a sms that never came since yesterday but in vain.. which would hav meant so many things to me..Kept me in the dark thinking how it will end up.. Questioning whether m i rite or not.. Wondering if it will be another story in my cupboard.. seem to be as a no..
Moreover, had 3 tests today.. maths and econs and chinese oral..
Firstly, the chinese oral came first.. i was so damn nervous that i read a bit badly to start with.. then got a few errors.. then the question for conversation was a bit hard and i realli realli crap my way through.. the question was about the opening up of the society, something like that..haha.. i realli anyhow anyhow say one lo.. said a then once.. haha..
Then, had maths.. I m so disgusted and angry and disappointed and frustrated with myself.. to think that i practised so much for it and i blanked out for the test.. i CONFIRM fail one lo.. later kena Mr Yong Math remedial class.. i rather go n die lo.. it is a waste of time.. muz depend on my mid yr common test le.. now realli muz mug like siao..sianz.. haiz.. so sad that i screw it up lo.. then me n hannyee bet.. bet that if i pass, i will treat her n vice versa.. haha.. juz so bloody bloody sad.. i think will cry myself to sleep ba.. haha..
Thirdly, the econs test was okie i think.. i put my best effort for it alreadi.. i hope its a gd pass.. i wasnt tense at all when im doin the econs.. haha.. mayb coz Mrs Chong is a SUPERB teacher.. SHE ROCKS!!.. haha
Then got back the Gpp today.. so many stuff lo.. haiz.. haha.. but we question the teacher like siao to get the ticks.. haha.. then she gave us chinese compo to do.. die.. totally no idea how to do the question lo.. sianz..
Finally, my mum brewed bitter groud soup.. i drank more that i used to.. mayb coz im so sad so it didnt taste bad at all.. mayb coz im bitter with myself bah.. so it fitted my mood.. haiz.
Now typing in front of the com, with a expressionless face.. haiz.. then my younger bro ask me bout physic.. haha.. my physic is a goner still ask me.. got a B3 onli leh.. then throw all the physic stuff away le..haha.. then like shit lo.. my physic suc thats y i didnt take physic..haha..
I guess i realli am veri angry with myself.. for the first time in a long time, i ate a kueh after dinner.. haha.. n i didnt feel full after dinner either.. then i stuff myself with food.. Moreover, i drank a glass of milk.. A veri bad combination.. haha.. Milk is a bad drink to start with.. some of you should know i guess.. i think the toilet will b the hot spot for me today after the milk.. haha.. i guess i need to do my work alreadi.. haiz.. sianz..
Friday, May 06, 2005
Friday, May 06, 2005
Due to that guy, i went to bed at 12.30.. haha.. so as expected, i woke up late this morning.. i woke up at bout 6.30.. them i went to wash up and got dressed by 6.40.. However, when i came out of my room, my elder brother and dad went off alreadi.. so i gylped down my milo and rushed downstairs onli to notice that my dad car is not there anymore.. then i called my dad n he asked me to wait for him at the void deck.. On my dad car, he asked why i went down so early.. then i told him the story.. then my dad said didnt my mum or my grandfather told me that my dad drop my bro off to army first.. coz my bro have to reach ther earlier today.. so i was pissed coz i didnt even get to the prata on the table n rushed out of the house n wait at the void dtck when i could hav taken my breakfast.. i was outraged but i didnt show to my dad.. tears were rolling in my eues.. but it didnt came out.. Well, i expected it coz im always the one being neglected by my family.. coz im of no value.. my grandfather always dote on my 2 bros.. it was never fair.. haiz.. moreover, my bros can go for chalet n bbq... yet.. i havent been to any yet.. pathetic rite?? life is never fair.. haiz.. i didnt realli show my unhappiness in sch today coz i didnt want it to spoil my dau..
today was quite fun.. my class went to kfc for lunch but one of us was saying how cruel kfc is to chickens.. haha.. then i mention b4 that i wanna refrain from meat.. then i think the girl now thinks im a hypo.. so juz wanna clarify.. haha.. i m goin to do that when im older as in when im working when i hav control over my life.. my parents are sooo strict with me.. n they didnt allow it.. in addition, i m goin to refrain from meat not solely coz that it is cruel to animals onli.. it is a combiantion of other reasons. haha.. so im not going to like protest against fast food chains or watsoeva.. ya.. goin to do flag day tml.. hope it will be fruitful with gd weather conditions.. n lots of generous people..haha..
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Forgot to mention this.. Saw my OP friends today who are in yishun junior college.. mixed feelings overwhelmed me.. i was so excited bout it in school that kept me motivated throughout the entire day coz thursday is my longest day..
However, seeing them once more is like something normal to them.. they are like normal to c me.. i missed them so much deep inside but they seem like they didnt.. i was depressed.. mayb coz we didnt communicate for some time so i felt foreign and alienated.. that broke my heart.. i tried to be normal n try n make the best out of the short precious time im spending with them.. Seeing some people again brought back memories.. happy and sad ones.. but it is through these memories that i kept close to my heart that helped me grew.. thank you..
Well, juz wanna say that even if im in a different college, doesnt mean i dun u ppl.. u all r closer to me heart than most coz i spend 4 unforgetable yrs with u ppl.. Deepest wishes to you all.. may u all excel in life n live with no regrets..take care,ya?? i hope that u read this..
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Today is a super long day and went back to OP to get the O level cert then went out for dinner with my OP friends.. haha.. stayed out til 8.. so rebellious.. haha.. reach home exhausted and tired.. haha.. still can chat with honey on the hour for at lest an hour.. haha..
I pass my chem test.. not with flying colours though.. but promised a chicken so im buyin tml.. haha.. then i heard from my OG friends that they all did well lo.. near a A grade.. then im soooo demoralised le.. too many pro kia around.. so sad.. haha..
However, in OP.. haha.. had preaching from Mr Nair..hahaz.. thought of dropping a subject to 3A.. coz no point taking 4a for a scholarship when the competition to get it is so bloody stiff as im in the dragon yr!!.. haiz.. then can concentrate better n get my As... dunno la... i think c how i fare for my mid yr after june lo... i hope that i can be determined enough to study during the hoilday for my tests.. haha.. knowing that im a I .. haha.. hard to achieve i think.. haha..k.. need to research for my bio essay which i think half is irrelevant.. haha. OOPs... hehe..
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Guess wat.. im in sch.. haha.. in school so free hor.. haha.. can come and blog.. well.. im still figuring how to add a tag board to let u ppl suan me.. haha.. l
ets see.. today's lesson is veri veri boring.. heard the announcement bout dropping of subjects.. then thought of dropping bio as usual because the content seem sooo much.. but chem econs n maths is a werid combination.. then i thought of dropping out of JC.. haha.. more or less, i feel that im not cut out for JC.. as if i will be more comfortable in poly.. taking a diploma and having more security.. i think that im not gd enough to stay in jc at all.. as in i may fail my subjects at the end of two yrs n end up no where.. that will be so sad.. deep down, i feel that JC information is too much and is dragging me down..
Furthurmore, i feel that im deprived of my school life, having to catch up with all the school work and the info that is passed to us by the teachers daily in lectures and tutorials.. all the work on my waiting list seem to be piling higher n higher til i even hav to hesitate to go out and hav fun like before.. i want to have fun n juggle schoolwork at teh same time but not at the expense of my grades.. Work seemed so manageable in Sec sch.. haiz.. now im feeling depressed..
Moreover, baby Zhar today forget to bring some stuff and he looks so stressed.. it dawn upon me that thank goodness im having a light cca.. if not i will be as stressed out as Zhar.. Poor Zhar.. i hope that he will cheer up after the cheerin for some sch team today.. haha.. well, im sure he will be as cheerful as b4..
then i heard a comment from one of my classmate today n it hit me hard.. cant say wat it is.. but it is hurting.. then im like m i that bad.. haiz.. well.. im not realli going to be bothered by it i think..haha.. i seem to be contradicting myself.. hahaz..
SO many things are happening in class.. haha.. a bit surprise that it is happening.. so unexpected.. haha.. why cant things be clear sothat no one will be hurt in the process or anything?? hahaz.. well.. thats life i think.. coping with it will be the hard part i think.. thank goodness im not in it.. n i hope i wun b.. haha.. im thinking too much again.. have to go n do homework n read genetics which im totally blur about durin lecture.. haha.. CIao
Monday, May 02, 2005
Monday, May 02, 2005
Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?D
id the captain of the titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time
Tonight
- a part of the song from Mandy Moore, 'Someday We'll Know'
Moreover, i watched the runaway bride yesterday.. this set me thinking ( more like dreaming) who n how will my Prince Charming be.. Well, of cause i will think of the perfect man, rite?? haha.. then it hit upon me that how often i c one.. let alone be with that one.. haha.. then i thought of the all the couples that i know n their male partners.. to me, some of them are not up to standard. then why they are together.. i realise that i cant have too high a standard.. but how high is high.. Well.. im thinkin too much.. haha.. i hav no time for this for the time being!! haha.. so now i muz get back to my work le.. ciaoz...
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