this is MOUSE!

2009-07-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

5 mths came and gone just like that.
can it b considered as a blink of an eye?
Maybe.
had i changed?
i think i did.

Busy sch term started. Followed by quizzes, assignments and report deadlines.
Time flew by just like any other school semester.

Below are the little perks of my boring school semester.
1) Lucky for me, I found a fren who had similar timetable to mine.
So, we could go for lects tgt all the time.
Is this the beginning of a new friendship?
I sincerely hope so.
2) Had a gr8 birthday week.
Could spend the time with ppl that I love though I was away from home in a foreign land.
Really treasured it.
Thanks for the presents ppl!
Got a new phone from my dad. hee
3) Hunter Valley Road trip
Had a taste of a atas lifestyle.
Had cheese with wine and champagne and choco.
Went for horse riding, drove ard e countryside.
It was quite a foodie road trip too. Haha.
Saw beautiful sun set in a vineyard and sunrise in Newcastle.
Managed to have a relaxing road trip.
Took a 2h train ride back to Sydney. Longest ever. Haha.
Glad that the accounts was settled too.
4) Tons of birthday dinners and meals ard in Sydney.
Managed to have a chance to explore various parts of Sydney and e food around.
Found that there is a shop that sells authentic Singapore food.
Find that idea quite funny.

Along with ups, there r down times.
1) A aunt passed away nearing e end of sem.
Felt guilty that I wasn’t there for a final goodbye.
The tot of not being able to see her again was upsetting.
Oh well.
2) started to have sleepless night once winter started.
Not sure if its coz of hormone changes or coz exams were round the corner.
It was mentally and physically draining.
3) Times when I miss sg a lot.
The family, the friends, climate, atmosphere, language, food and etc.
Being overseas brought up the significant traits that can endemic to Singapore.
Those are hard times.

Joy of July holidays:
1) Met up with dine in Sydney.
Went to Jenolan Caves in Blue mountains and watched Transformer 2 at IMAX.
Had pancakes on the rock and ribs at Hurricanes! YumYum.
Thanks for the wine! =)
Being with dine brought back lots of sec sch day memories.
The good and the bad.
If only there r more of our photos on facebook…
Coz my previous harddisk crashed and I lost my entire collection of our op photos.
Haiz.
2) NZ trip
I got upgraded to business class seats on my emirates flight from Syd to Christchurch.
The chair was very spacious and huge!
I could even order champagne and wine anytime.
Haha. Lucky me.
I think I was fortunate as we did not check in online and got the last few seats.
Hence, they decided to upgrade the person who would be seating at the last few seats.
It may not be true. haha.

Upon our arrival in Christchurch, we took a shuttle bus to Methven.
The bus conductor thought im only 16. Haha.
Do I look that young?? Haha.
We stayed over at the YHA there.
Their service is really good.
The nights were really cold though.
So cold that I would get woken up in my slp.
We spent 2 days skiing in Mt Hutt.
I put my skiing skills to e test by going up to the intermediate slope but it took me 1h to get down. Haha.
I guess I was not daring enough.
The food in Methven was gd!! Haha.

Then we spent 2 days in Christchurch.
On e 1st night, there was a earthquake.
However, we were out on the streets and did not feel anything.
What a pity. Haha.
We spent another day in the middle earth of the LOTR movie!
Took a day tour up to Edoras.
Gr8 scenery!
It was breath-taking.
However, it was a foggy day.
We were not fortunate enough to witness the full beauty of the 360 degrees mountain.
What a pity.
The trip made me wanna watch the extended versions of all 3 movies.
Then we caught the Harry Potter movie in Hoyts.
The movie was a waste of money.
There was no action at all!
Felt so cheated.

Next, we took a domestic flight to Auckland which was delayed by 2h.
Spent e time chatting and slacking. Haha.
After reaching Auckland, Danica and her dad brought us around the city.
It felt like Sydney.
There was e sky tower and a smaller harbour bridge.
Perhaps all the cities look the same afterall.
Our accommodation that night was damn cool.
Their lift is so ancient that we have to open and close it manually.
It was an eye opener!
Haha.

We picked up our car and started to drive to Rotorua.
The car broke down about 10km out of Auckland.
We had to wait for 1h for a replacement.
What luck. Haha.
The first thing we did when we reached Rotorua was to go to Rainbow Springs.
The highlight of the place was their kiwis!
Haha. The catch to it was that they are nocturnal animals.
Haha. So, we checked in first and had dinner with Auntie June.
So lucky of me to be able to see ppl from my family.
It meant a lot to me regardless of how close we were before.
After dinner, we went to check out the kiwis again.
Haha. We had to play ‘find the kiwi’ game.
They had cages with shrubs!!
And they could camouflage well.
The kiwis are huge.
Haha.

We spent the 2nd day in Rotorua on water- rafting.
It wasn’t exciting at all. Oh well.
We sang the entire trip to and fro.
I hope the guides dun think that we r nuts.
Haha.
Then I drove down to Taupo.
The public roads were not lit at all.
It was very different from driving in the city.
The GPS even brought us to take shortcuts where there isn’t any public road.
Haha. Exciting!

We spent our 2nd last day in Taupo sight seeing and eating.
We visited the Huka falls and the geothermal places ( they do stink a lot).
Haha.
Then we drove back to rotorua for spa.
Wanted to try mud spa but it was closed for maintenance. What luck.
Haha.
Then we drove back to Auckland in the middle of the night.
We dropped SX and CJ at the airport first while me n SY went to return the car.
When we returned to the airport, we realised that our flight was cancelled.
Haha. It was hilarious.
N we were told that this is not the first time that it happened.
At least we managed to get another flight back to Sydney.

Glad that we managed to get back to Sydney safe and sound.
How I wish the plane landed in Sg.
I do miss home after all.
4 more mths and I will be back.

I think that I think too much.
Hope I can see a light soon so I will not dwell on it too much.
Or mayb im not meant to c the light.
Life will be simpler.

I noticed that the different background the experiences shape a person’s thinking differently.
Hence, when faced with an issue, different solutions will be presented.
I believe that is the root of all misunderstandings and miscommunications.
Someone has to give in or accommodate.
But I guess, there is limit to it as well.
Coz no one is a saint.
It made me so tired.

E other day, 3 old frens met up.
Started to talk bout sch days and e ppl they met.
All the gossips and old rumurs came in.
Then I started to wonder..
How much power does e words of 1 person has on another..
Will it change the impression of the other person totally?
Is it fair to the person who was e topic of conversation?
Would it condemn the person?
Will there be ‘2nd’ chance for the person?
Is this back-stabbing?

Then again, I believe that there is a reason behind everything.
But the reason is not always being divulged.
Is that the crux of the matter?
I believe it is.
Or prob, I choose to believe it is and have faith in the goodness of everybody.
They could have handled the issue in a unique way due to family influences or past experience.
Who are we to judge based on the surface evidence?
Who are we to comment?
Do we really know the full story?
Cant we give e person a benefit of doubt?

Truthfully, its weird being ard ppl from elite sec sch and jc.
All they talk about is the ppl that they knew.
Wow! Sg is a small world.
I guess that is the few common topics that they can find.

‘Pot calling the kettle black’ – a situation that arise way too often.
Just that ppl failed to notice it.

Being away from the upbeat face of sg, it made me realise that I hav been taking lots of things for granted.
Can I have the time to make amendments?
I hav to admit that Im not gd at keeping friends.
I guess I was too obsessed in schoolwork.
Had e wrong impression that everything else can wait.
The truth is it doesn’t.
Guess I have been making wrong decisions all the time.
Took me 21yrs to see that.
Better late than never?
I can only hope so.
Im sorry.

Sydney

2009-02-27T23:50:00.001+08:00

This post may be contradictory coz it’s a summary of what happened since I got here.. had to do this coz we met lots of problem setting up the internet..

If you are looking for my photos.. check them out under my room-mate’s facebook.. haha.. will try and tag them to me soon.. sorry bout e delay.. coz the internet sucks!!

I think that goodbye is the hardest word to say,,
Been trying to see it in a different light..
Not sure how well if it worked..

Kind of dreaded Thursday to come..
Not like there would be much of a difference coz it still came..

Thanks those who made the effort to meet up as well as came and sent me off..
It really meant a lot to me..
Thank you for the gifts!!
More happy memories for me to dwell on whenever im down..
I can never thank you guys enough..

Been trying to set time aside to meet up with as many ppl as possible..
Kind of disappointed that it wasn’t as successful as it could have been..

It was difficult to walk into the terminal..
Tears swell up during the journey to e airport..
Its so difficult to be tough..
Hav no idea why im trying to be so strong and tough..
Why??

In e end im bottling all of it up..
It feels horrible..
I think I had finished building the wall..

The plane ride was very bumpy..
They provided too heavy a dinner..
Didn’t get the chance to explore the plane though..

Then, we took a maxi-cab to Unilodge.
N rushed down to school..
Only to be 1h late for a 1.5h seminar..
Haha.. cool rite??
Was kind of embarrassing though.. haha..
Oh well, not like they will remember.. haha..
Then went back to my room..

Spent the rest of the day tidying up..
Quite disappointed with the state of the room..
So me and my room-mate decided that we should not be nice..
Haha.. demanded a lot of stuff from the lobby ppl..
Hope that the room will be better soon..
Why does it sound like the room is sick?? Haha..

Spent my second day with my family and brother at Blue Mountain & the wildlife Park…
It was a pity that it was rainy..
The whole place was too foggy to see the 3sisters rock..
Prob hav to go again.. oh well..
At least we have the chance to touch koalas, kangaroos, wombats, etc..
Took lots of photos!! Haha..

Then we went to explore Paddy’s market, Sydney Fish Market, Chinatown n etc..
Looked around at the surroundings..
Felt so comfortable to be able to speak Chinese in Chinatown.. haha..
Felt more at home..
The seafood at Sydney Fish Market is damn fresh!!
First time I tried octopus which is not chewy at all!!
Haha.. I sound like a noob..
The abalone is huge as well as their native crab!!
Wow.. haha.. Love the food there..
Went to have dinner at a Jap restaurant..
Its not too bad too.. haha..
Then my dad walked me back..
So gonna miss that warmth feeling..

Monday came just like that..
Had to do enrollment..
Hope its fine coz of my situation..
Then had farewell lunch with my parents..
Rushed back to school to continue enrollment..
N cabbed down to their hotel to send them off..
Tears swelled again..
Haha..
Its really not easy..

Went for a bit of retail therapy..
Not sure if it worked..
Am I still bottling up??
I hav no idea..

Been trying to settle all the small misc issues with my roomie..
Felt so insecure..
Went to get a bank account..
Asked for their interest rate and 3 different staff quoted different rates within the few minutes we were there..
Not sure who to trust.. oh well..

I got my new number too!!
Call me at +61423964762!
New Address is:
Unilodge Sydney Apartment 4141
185-211 Broadway, Bay Street
Ultimo
N.S.W. 2007
Australia

Dread the day that we have to start cooking..
Felt like we hav to do everything from scratch..
Had to demand stuff from the reception..
Fancy paying so much but the room is not clean to our standards..
Been up til 2am daily to try and set up the router for wireless..
Suffering from severe insufficient sleep!! Oh man..
Miss Singapore local dishes already..
Miss the convenience too..
Most imptly, I miss my friends..
Oh well..

The internet provider in my lodging sucks!!
Only one laptop can access e internet at a time..
Haiz.. Its either im online or my roomie or neither..
Hope it will b better soon.. Sianz ar..

Annoying little details r so annoying..
That’s y they r annoying.. haha..
Dunno how else to grumble I think..

Lots to stuff to consider..
Should I adopt a Christian name??
Should I start to learn their accent??
Oh man.. is there a need??
This sucks totally..

Been cooking for over a week already..
Had curry chicken!!..
But when it was my turn to cook,
We steamed e fish too long and it turned super chewy..
Can you believe that??
Haha.. oops.. guess we all have to learn..

Gotten my timetable and its bout e same as how its like in NTU..
Stats at 9am daily.. ends late..
Earliest is 1pm..

Can you believe that I need to pay to use msn and skype in school!!
This sucks.. so not used to the internet restriction..
Oh man..

Went for clubs orientation and got totally turned off..
Have to pay for every freaking thing..
Even have to pay to go for audition for their orchestra..
Seriously.. that is the reality??
It cost $0.10 to print a page..
Oh man.. and textbks can cost more than $100..
This is bad..
Plus had to get all e necessities for our room to be like a home..
All e expenditure..
Not used to spending so much at a go..
Haiz..

And there are soooo many numbers to rmb!!
Oh gosh..
Guess this is part of e package..

School starts on Monday!! Haiz..

Missing you guys lots!!
Smile more!!

2009-01-22T23:41:00.002+08:00

Wow.. i didnt realise that i was busier when i am not working..
haha.. oops..

Last Christmas (2008), we had a gift exchange at Nadine's place..
Just like old times??
Her must-cook tea eggs with Indian Rojak.. haha..
Just being around her living room..
Taking lots of photos..
brought back older memories.
THanks Mark for the socks!!
Its very cute.. haha..
I do like it alot..
Hope that Hao ge like the shirt! =)
Hope that JiaHui likes the book too..

We had the count down at JiaHui's place!!
1st time leh..
On top of that, we could catch a few minutes of fireworks from Malaysia..
haha.. Bonus!! hehe..
It is also the first time that i played Wii..
haha.. its so cute..
such retarded rabbits.. haha..
it was fun being silly together..
Gonna miss that alot..

GLad that i was able to spend the day with my loved ones.. =))

Then, patronised this Jap ala carte buffet restuarant near Alexandra Road..
Damn good!! OMG!!
i dun mind gaining weight for it..
haha.. good food..
But i still prefer the BBQ on christmas day..
Prepared by my mum..
wow.. shall think of it when im eating food that is horribly cooked in Sydney..
haha..

Prob gonna end my ushering job soon..
Hate to do so..
It had been a great experience..
Given the chance to try out the service sector..
Learnt so much from the seniors there..
Had History lessons too..
The history of cityhall too..
The other ushers there are warm and welcoming..
Its like a big family..

Been out for K-Box with Jas, shi hern n joel..
haha..
it had been ages since i sang..
n i was having sore throat.. =((
then we had Gelare.. hehe..

I had been exploring Singapore..
so Happy!! hehe..
been to the Zoo, took the walk from Kent Ridge to Vivo, walk to Sungei Buloh.. =))
had lots of fun..
lots of places to go still!!
Hope i have enough time..

Realised that i dun hav many days left..
Should i start counting down??
its quite daunting.. haha..

Finally settled my accommodation and flight..
Taking SQ 221, departing at 2040 12.02.09, T3..
to a new chapter of my life..

2008-12-26T13:31:00.003+08:00

Yeah!! 2.5 more working days to go..
N i shall have my freedom back..
But my bosses piled my table full of stuff to do..
should i be a nice person to finish it all??
mayb it will bring me gd karma??
haha..

havent got a chance to run since the marathon..
oh no.. this is not gd..
haha..
shall try and find time..
somehow..

cant wait to meet my frens for gathering..
Poor yew kiat..
kenna suan like siao.. haha..
im soo mean..
ok, i shall be nicer to him..
haha..

i finally got my paper license..
hope that it can be valid in Aust too..
then i can drive all ard the place..
But my dad has yet to allow me to drive his car..
but i want to..

Christmas juz came and go again...
gd food and the presents are juz the things that i look forward to..
haha..
had bbq at my house..
lots and lots of food.. yum yum..
turkey, chicken chop, lamb chop, pork chop, clams, prawns, sotong, stingray, bacon with sausage, bacon with veg, 3 pizzas, chicken wings, otah, salad, drinks..
omg.. gonna miss the food..
then i start to wonder if i will be home next christmas to eat it..
oh well..
we shall see how things goes..
maybe i cant resist the temptation of food and b back..
haha..

helped out for carolling..
but i think i cant sing well.. haha
the frens of shisong are damn good..
haha.. should be very grateful to them..
haha..

the highlight of christmas is the gathering of OP gang..
at yy's lan shop..
haha.. who else goes out with 20 odd friends in 1 go??
haha.. just hanging out is fun..
the warm atmosphere in the room..
soon, we will have known most of them for 8yrs..
we had grown up together..
all that memories and the stupid things that we did..
haha..
gonna miss u guys so much..

we had a proper countdown at 11.59..
but our dear lionel didnt press record..
haha.. so we had to countdown again for him..
its so real..
we are such gd actors..
haha..

then there was the very 'nice' singing of lionel and wb over the laptop mic..
its a miracle that the laptop speakers didnt break down..
haha.. =P
then there was 2 games of saboteurs..
n teaching lionel english..
pity his future students..
haha..

since we are in a lan shop, of course the guys have to play CS..
haha.. n sf got hooked onto audition..
i tot its quite a old game already..
haha..

i hope that accommodation and flight tickets can be settled soon..
oh man..
the year is coming to an end..

its amazing the she believed her and not me..
juz a sentence from her beats everything that i said and did..
stunned..

i love my presents... haha..
cant wait for the party on the 30th..
so many gatherings to go for!!
=)

quite sad that i cant go to Bangkok..
n had to waste all that money..
hole in my pocket is getting bigger..
oh well..
its e season of giving..
haha..

Happy Boxing Day!

2008-12-11T13:31:00.002+08:00

Havent been able to blog..
haha..
Too busy i guess..

Finally the Marathon is over!!
The big event of the year for my life thus far.
Though i must admit that i didnt put in much effort..
haha.. Im overjoyed that i can comlete it and still go out the next day.
haha..

Have to thank so many ppl!!
Thanks Lionel, Kahing, Mal, WB, TW,Mark,Yilong and others who had trained with me..
It had beeen super enjoyable running to different places with you guys!!
Would you guys still wanna run??
haha..

Thanks for running/walking with me that day dine!!
Thanks for helping me complete the marathon..
haha.. an accomplishment for the year 08!!

Now, im a proud owner of the black finisher tee..
heee..
I did it!!

Do it again??
Prob.. i dun mind i think..
haha..

Sad that i didnt manage to go yuki-yaki with the others.
sorry.. had to go for carolling practise..

Hope i can see the photos soon then Lionel can help me print!!
Soon..

Finally settled my VISA..
Gonna get my MacBk in Jan!!
Got a hard-disk for it already..
So exciting!!

Hope i can find a room-mate for unilodge sydney..
Praying hard**

Next, have to book air ticket..
Preparation of packing my bags..
hee.. since my parents will be going over with me, i guess baggage limit will not be a problem..
I hope everything can be settled too and soon..

went to snow-city the other day too.
went down the slide so many times..
haha.. felt like im a kid again..
i guess being around the kids influenced me..
haha..

Gonna go BirdPark on Sat!!
But the number of adult exceeded the number of children for the event.
Oh well..
Kind of sad..

i have yet to talk to my parents bout BKK..
i think that Vimal is gonna kill me..
sorry..

Cant wait for work to end..
haha.. End of Dec!!
Then i shall play..
Awaiting anxiously..

2008-11-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

Havent been in a mood to blog..
Been through a rough patch..
both literally and physically..

prob i ran out of luck..

All started with the terrible fall on last tues..
I DUN WAN ANY SCARS!!
damn sad..
hit my thumb very badly, both knees and my chin..
oh no.. im disfigured le la..
oh well..
better start saving more money in case i hav to spend e rest of my life alone....
haha..

then i lost my sense of humour..
if there was any for a few days..
substituted it with tears..

been grounded..
pain in e knee when i wanna stand..
cant run..
marathon is coming..
having problem with my visa..
havent done my medical checkup..
driving instructor schedule is fully booked..
not confident for my test next mth..
whether to go bangkok or not..
worry bout my wounds..
worry bout when i will receive my eCOE..
oh man..
found it hard to put a smile on my face..
wasnt in much of a mood for anything e past wk..

all i wish now is for my wounds to heal properly..
then i can start running..
prob will go tanning..
so that e scars wun b obvious..
hope it works..
sad..............................................

2008-11-09T14:09:00.002+08:00

ANother week had passed..
soon.. another mth will pass..
N.. another yr!!
omg!!
haha..

shall try not to think bout that..
in order for e yr to end, i hav to get my license n finish std chart first..
haha..

now, e yr sounds longer..
haha..

Let's make life an adventure!!
N not waste it!!

Wanna thank e guys!!
motivate me in running!!
Thanks guys!!
its so sweet of u guys!!
Beautful memories~~~

Life is beautiful..

2008-11-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

at times..
it does gets on my nerves..
how some can say something with such absolute confidence that its true based on nth!!

can u pls do it if its at least based on research n not u??
well.. unless u r e researcher..

in such instances..
u didnt win coz we couldnt rebute..
but coz there is no way to as its not even true..

Yes, its true that we may not hav e evidence to say that its not true..
but that doesnt mean its right either..

its not pretence at all..
its self-defence..
normal ppl will not open up fully in the face of strangers rite??
n its term as pretence..
i guess there is no right and wrong..
but im sure postive and negative connotation are involved..

glad its off my chest..

Thurs: run after work
Fri: usher after work
Sat: Morning run, lunch out, work at night..
way to go girl!!

2008-11-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

OMG!! SUnday was happening!!
haha..

Went for driving in e morning..
it wasnt too bad..
juz that i hav no idea wat my instructor is doing..
he is an oddball..
oh well..
1.5 more mths of lessons!!
cant wait for it to end..

then bathe n im out for AVE Q!!
damn gd lyrics..
haha.. can someone send me e soundtracks??
haha..
enjoyed my afternoon with my hall frens..
havent seen them for quite a while..
n wonder when i will again..
oh well.

then met e guys for dinner at HK cafe..
dinner wasnt so bad..
haha..

N then we went to partyworld!!
e 5 of us..
Jus for WB lo..
haha..
so FUN!!
e out of tune.. out or beat..
talking..
change gender singing..
til 3am!!
WoooHOoooo~~~

n woke up at 7+ for work til now..
way to go girl!!

Still rmb how it was like for e previous k sessions..
haha.. so funny!!
havent sang for soo long..
terrible voice now..
brought back old memories..
guess we are getting older now..
haha..

It was so co-incidental!!
haha..
oh well.. read more into it??
u bet i will..
haha..
no harm since its a positive tot..
whether is it right or not..
thats another issue..

2008-11-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

Terrifying!!
From monday onwards, my assistant manager will be seated beside me..
n face me e entire time!!
omg..
haha.. thankfully i can escape to my fren's office..
e photocopier.. haha..
been doin boring brainless stuff..
prob gonna wipe out another 1/4 of amaazon next week..
hope everything goes well..

haha.. been working at esplanade..
hope i can clock my 36h soon!!
onli had done 8h..
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

its insane!!
i ran to woodlands juz now..
from khatib..
omg..
way to go!!
thanks guy for e motivation n support..
haha.. though i was so slow..
thanks..

Pls stop taking fried food kahing!!
haha..

i wanna live like a tourist!!
except for the 5star hotel rooms..
haha..
i wanna visit all e places of interest in Singapore b4 i leave!!
haha..

went to underwater world e other day..
the glass magnifying effect is quite extensive..
haha.. my hand looked sooo small in e tank!!
so cute la.. but it doesnt show up in e pic..
oh well..

oh yes.. went to sentosa during deepavali..
felt like i was in India..
haha.. amazed..

gonna watch Ave Q tml!!
missed my hall frens!!
haha..

Happy Birthday WB!!
so many fond memories all these years..
All e best!!
Thanks for everything!! haha..

2008-10-26T00:00:00.004+08:00

Another wk had come n gone..
Been hanging ard in e workaholic department..
oh well..
shall try n help as much..

its really funny how e interns put things tgt..
haha.. funny group of ppl to hang out with..

i seriously think there is a communication barrier btw me n my driving instructor..
oh man..
shall try communicating again tml..
argh..

finally i got my hands on my mum's phone..
hehe..
can send more sms..

can u imagine!!
my phone grew fatter n turned fairer in seconds!!
haha.. coz i bought a rubber protector
but it made my phone look hideous!!
omg..
well, since there is a high prob that i will drop it..
i shall stick to it..
haha..

finally i hav a working watch!! hehe..
changede batt n strap..
yeah!!
e watch that i had since pri sch..
shall bring it to aust..
sentimental value..
e only valueable possession of mine that is not damaged..
haha..

had a hectic wk..
rush for driving lessons after work..
rush to run after work..
rush to work after work..
oh well..

seems like it will b like that for next mth..

no more hols til dec!!
omg..
'sadded' - adopted from mel honey!!
amazed at e kind of effect that a word has on me..
brought back memories.. missed sch..

started work at esplanade!! =)
super tiring for e legs..
shall take it as gd training!!
haha..

"Everything"

You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus]

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

2008-10-19T22:38:00.002+08:00

Had been working for a week..
Initally, i made 3 new gd frens..
Ms Stapler, Mr Hole-puncher and Mr photocopying machine..
hang out with them for bout 2+ days..
half e time im there..
haha..
i think i developed a bit of skills there..
haha..

well, its a female dominant environment..
which is super hectic..
e busiest department..
with lots of paperwork and loose ends to tie..
never ending!!

i hav 5 bosses who will juz drop me with the small errands..
n 1 big big german boss.. who wun bother me.. hehe..
but 5 bosses can kill i think..
n 1 even notice e shoe i wear..
omg.. scary..
females.. haha..

there will b a regional conference next mth..
sounds exciting..
hope that i can play a part in organising it..
hope it will b fun!!
haha.. something to look forward to..

it rained e other day during lunch..
so e group of temp n interns hav to run in e rain back to office..
n i outran 2 male poly interns n 1 male perm staff..
hehe.. feels gd sia..
motivation to keep me on my training!!
hehe..

realise that i dun hav alot of office wear..
sianz..

went to singapore botantical gardens on sat!!
for jiahui's birthday celebration..
mal n kahing insisted that we had been there b4..
have we??

though it started out as a small grp, ppl keep on coming..
so happy!!
to see them again!!
gonna miss this so..
hope that jiahui n wb will upload e photos!!
i wan my photos!!
haha..
i wanna rmb every single detail..
mal and his WWII groundsheet..
haha..
kai n kahing's jeans ad photo..
me n wb up to e branches of e $5 tree..
kai n wb n mark to help me up the hole on e other side..
mark n wb to help me walk along e branch..
haha..
it was so funny to pull mark's hair..
haha.. oops..
a super memorable day..
thank goodness e sun wasnt too scorching or jia hui will hav melted..
haha..
poor li, didnt get to eat e strawberry choco coz wb finished it..
all e time spent on trying to take a photo with everybody in it..
e kids climbing to n fro..
haha..
e guys discussing on how to get up e tree..
haha.. came up with so many variations of methods..
i guess ns trained them well..
haha..
e super lousy polar bear session..
haha.. it was so obvious who r e bears la..
haha.. so funny..

then e dinner at fish n co..
stingray wasnt up to expectations..
it was burnt!! sianz..
n made us wait for more than half an h for them to open up e second level..
missed e time we ate tgt on a table..
sharing food.. juz makes e food more delicious..
haha..
n all e alcohol!!
haha.. went red again..
n e ice cream cake sponsored by kahing!! yum yum..
there were 16 of us there!! =)))

then playing charades using taboo cards..
so funny!! haha..
omg.. cant stop laughing..

im getting emotional..
e next time will prob b chalet..
e longing feeling..
wanna give all a big big hug n never let go..
they can never b substituted by anything in e world..

oh, i forgot to mention that i fell from e tree..
haha.. so exciting!!
wanted to get up e hole..
then my hand slipped..
i think i scratched wb.. oops..
haha..
bruises on my right arm n right leg..
big toe is swollen..
haha..

my first trip to e botantical gardens..
my first fall from a tree..
( sounds like i hav a deprived childhood)
my first trip to the glasshouse too..

all given to u guys lo..
haha..
should feel honoured!!
haha.. im being lame..

wanna rmb this day foreva..
smth to look back on n laugh..
if onli everybody turned up..
missed u dine!!
n our hao-ge is a apprentice!!
at a modelling firm..
so cool..
wish him all e best!!
haha..

hav to convince myself..
succumb to sweetness but not bitterness!!
its tough..
but its not rational to start with rite??
so anything is possible??
haha..
or m i holding my hopes too high??
should i try not to sink in too much?
or hav i already sunk in deeply??
haha..
im not thinking anymore..

2008-10-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

Thurs was slacking day..
haha..
the last thurs of 2008 for me to slack..

Had Jap for dinner for 2 nights in a row..
wow.. haha..
Wonder if i will miss it when im in sdyney..
haha..

Tried to treasure e last day of freedom..
Gonna really get the taste of monday blues from tml onwards..
til dec!!
omg.. hope there is more holidays..
y did i commit to this??
sianz..
im dreading it even b4 it starts!!
thats not the right attitude..
but.. im a temp wat..
oh well..

but seems like im back to being a workaholic..
back to being myself again??
mon- wedding dinner
tues- esp
wed- driving
thurs- run
fri-meet pam
sat- jh bdae..
life is great rite.. haha..

went for the arts exhibition juz now..
hav to thank my bro..
hehe..
some were so realistic!!
omg.. its so beautiful..
yet sad at e same time..
e emotions that were invoked in some of the drawings..
art.. is the expression of the emotions of e artist rite?

its realli amazing how not overweight me n my bros are..
there are lots of snack!!
ice cream, choco, aust snacks, sweets, secret recipee cakes, famous amos cookies, etc..
mouth watering.. haha..
munch munch munch..
hope these will motivate me to run more..
haha..

gonna miss e p1 kiddo..

2008-10-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

im a superwoman!
haha..
worked from 7am to 10pm!!
wow..
relief teach then florist then tuition..
haha.. i think im nuts..
gonna go shop tml!!
hehe..

living up to the quote..
work hard n play hard..

ohno..
i realised that e method i used to park cant b used in e day..
coz i base my judgement on the light cast on e pole..
sianz..
disappointed..
hope it turns out well..

there was a kid who told me he has a mental problem..
u prob hav to b quite normal to do that rite??
haha..
well, he doesnt do anything e entire day but irritate his classmates..
which turned e entire class against him..
low eq??
well, im juz a relief teacher..
if his form teacher cant improve e situation, its not possible that i can change him in 5h too..

yawnz..

2008-10-06T13:36:00.002+08:00

Seems like Monday is the day for me to blog..
haha..
to drive away the monday blues??
haha.. how to hav monday blues if im not working yet??
haha..

Went to relief teach on a few days..
n i finished watching the Jap serial..
1 litre of tears..
e rare time that i cried over a show..
its juz too tragic..
how life may turn out..
i admire her courage..

how many can do e same??

or how many may think otherwise?
view themselves as burden??

this is 1 issue that i dun wanna think too much bout..
or hav i already??
haha..

i hav been reading this sotry bout their experience as a Jew during the Nazi rule..
haha..

who reads n watch such tragic stuff??
haha..
oops..
will try not to do it again..
let me finish e bk first..
haha..

now i think im a nutcase..
i got 4 jobs!!
tuition + usher + florist + HR ..
haha..
im not hard up for money..
im hard up for time..
haha..
this is so crazy..
well, at least my time has a higher value on it now..
shall see how things goes??
hope i wun tire myself out..
n i still need to run!!
omg..

haha..

Bye Shifeng!!
See u on Kat's BDae!!
poor broke..
had to go for 42 days of exercise..
hope everything go smoothly for u.. =)

My very first supper trip with OP gang..
My very first trip to Chomp Chomp..
haha.. unbelievable??
haha..
it was so fun!!
omg.. i love it..
i dun mind eating more to go for it!!
haha.. treat it as store for my running session..
** im trying to lie to myself blatantly **
haha..
Lets go again!!

felt like my mum is giving me freedom le..
shall not try to take advantage of it too much..
but.. it feels gd..
hehe..

2008-09-29T13:37:00.002+08:00

Juz last wk i was in Vietnam..
away from reality..
haha..
but im more than happy to b back..
hehe..
back to this place called home..

wonder how it will b like when i go aust..
at least i hav dine!!
haha.. i think.. somehow.. haha..

been going out lately..
n will still b.. haha..
guess im not a homely person..
hehe..

my beloved N73 is down..
the phone memory claim that its full..
but i cant figure out wat is it full of..
sianz..
i love e phone so much lo..
sianz...
hope that there will b gd deals on wed for me to get another phone..
my N73..
it had been a yr n 4 mths..
been through entire NTU life with me..
oh man..
sianz..

Sunday was unbelievable!!
17 of us turned up eventually..
started from 10 for movie..
then it swelled to 17 for bowling..
is it e magic of bowling or they happen to b free??
haha..
it was fun catching up with them..
n creating new records on e video game machine..
heard that lionel got e high score that nite..
153 with 5 strikes.. haha..
not bad..
i only managed a spare..
haha.. well..
my first time playing with them..
it was fun laughing at each other n ourselves..
u guys made up such a big part of me..
gonna miss u guys lots when i leave..

now im trying to settle accomodation..
which is a tricky issue..
oh well..
hope everything goes well..
i believe that luck runs in e family..
hehe..

watched 'my best friend's girl'
highlighted e fact that..
nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai..
does it happen all e time??
coz of e risk??
no pain no gain?
haha.. silly tots..

it does seem like im gonna get a job..
haha.. til e end of dec..
but it means i can onli go out less..
will i mind it??
haha.. im so greedy..
its money VS time..
who is gonna win??
but there is still jan to go out..
rite??
haha..

its so funny at times..
how ppl contradict themselves..
they like simple designs for things..
but they like to complicate their own lives..
seems like they desire things to b simple..
yet they choose to believe that things have to be complicated..
so is it really how this seems??

watched another movie e other day..
bout his attitude prob girl..
who changed for e better..
who says leopard cant change their spotS??
but she over-did it..
wanted to fit in more..
where is e line??
its gd at times to know our flaws and work on it..
to change for e better..
but, we should still retain smth bout us that is special rite??
haha.. we r all special, isnt it?

as long as we r not doing things against our conscience..
isnt it gd enough??

to my dear dear frens..
i believe that the sun is always shining..
its onli a matter of whether one wanna step in it..
n let the lightrays shine all over us..
let the sun shine on us with our eyes closed and a broad smile..
life is beautiful..
well, its does rain a bit here.. haha..
but it will eventually b over and the sun will b out again..
i love the sun..

not known how to get there??
when there is a will, there is a way..

take a step back..
breathe..
calm down..
n smile..
n believe that its possible..
=)

its a matter of how badly one wants it..

i had always tot im a rational person..
capable of keeping my emotions under control..

2008-09-22T21:55:00.003+08:00

super frustrating!!
some company still refuse to pay me..
@#$%TY&$
i hope that their company will fold soon..
haha..

Went to relief teach again for 2 days..
poor kids..
hav to b taught by me..
haha..
well, its gd money..
haha..
i do need that additional cash..
since im still jobless..

been packing for my vietnam trip!
im now in vietnam!!
hehe..
its mostly sightseeing..
seen the horrors of war in a museum..
which intensifies their hatred for the Americans..
e after effects of agent orange..
e torture methods that they used against e ppl..
the chicken feather on their fingers..
the tiger cage..
my heart goes out to them..
the tragedies of war..
something that i hope i never get to experience..

seen the ancient post office where telephone booths are wooden cubicles..
so cool!!

the population of women here outnumbered the guys so much so that their status are downgraded..
it had even became their culture to wear their national costumes made of thin material..
so that they can exhibit their assets to attract guys' attention..
its quite sad..
plus the guys hav more than 1 wife!!
poor ladies..
all is due to the reason that alot of guys were killed in war..
thankfully im born in singapore..

now im at a resort.. hehe..
near e beach where ladies line up on e beach waiting to poach on guys..
kind of interested to see how its like..
but they wun b interested in me..
hav yet to buy anything much..
hope there can b more stuff in e market!!

the food here is so-so..
nth fantastic..
quite oily..
lots of beef n dog meat..
thankfully im with e tour..
but e bread here is great!!
so is the buffet breakfast in e hotel!!
damn gd!!
haha..

went to a restaurant in e afternoon..
appears to b a hotspot where couples take their wedding photos..
its quite disappointing to see that the guys here r way worse than those in SIngapore!!
oh my god..
its realli terrible..
n im not exaggerating..
n i had already lowered e standards..
so there is nth much to look at along e streets..

its quite sad that they will date by e roadsides..
all e dust and soot from e millions of motorbikes!!
it juz sounds so romantic..
haha..

i tried shooting using a M16..
i know u guys r sick of it..
but its new to me ok!!
2 bullets!!
sad that i cant bring the bullet shells home..
its quite addictive..
haha..

stupid weijie thinks im a sec 3/4 kid..
so does the casino personnel..
refuse to let me enter..
i onli wanted to use e internet la..
frustrating..

had a super interesting tour guide..
his jokes are damn gd.
n he even asked us to give him hotel soap n shaver..
haha..
poor broke..
hav a big family to support..
but he put it across very well..
hav to hand it to him..

prob will recall more stuff when im back..
3 more days i think..
i had lost count..
haha..

it had been a wk long le..
so many things happened..
still so many 'what ifs'..
wondering whether how serious this will be..
been thinking bout it e whole time..
i blieve its right to do smth bout it..

2008-09-14T13:45:00.003+08:00

so frustrating!!
The boss refuse to give an answer whether to hire me or not yet..
looks like i need to look for another..
irritating..

taught chinese on mon n tues..
i think my chinese language improved..
hehe.. havent written chinese characters for quite some time already..
hope it wun b a longer time til i write it again..

taught p1 on fri..
there is a attitude problem kid in class..
i believe he is colour blind..
he is full of resentment..
my heart goes out to him..
his negativity is so extreme..
he gave me alot of trouble..
refuse to cooperate..
hope that teachers can talk to him..
oh well..
its all over..

been e usual usher training and driving..
n tuition..
hardly making ends meet..
oh well..
joy is more impt??
lalala

hav to thank Maypo for your introduction!!
the books by e author were really gd..
love them!!
finally time to read again.. hehe..

Finally met the OP gang after quite some time..
sorry guys.. its always tuition..
exams.. sorry..

finally handed my stuff over to e juniors..
felt more at ease..

Thanks SerXing for your dear advice..
one shouldnt allow factors to hold us back..
one should not b restricted by our own mentality..
cox e future is a unknown..
n its unpredictable..
s treasure time..

enough with 'what ifs'
coz if we r not, then we might as well b cooped up at home..
coz accident rates are high..
anything can happen anytime..
its all our choice..
in our hands..

sounds like i had though it through??
i hope so..
but it takes 2 hands to clap..

gonna get back to my Beloved Dr House..
haha..

i hope i wun b so random that i give ppl a shock..

Dine!! im free lo..
never call me.. =(

2008-09-07T15:52:00.002+08:00

had been caught up by usher training..
tuition and driving..
felt so guilty..
hav to go to vietnam e weekend juz b4 her exam..
oh man..

Many guys came into my life..
N i had pushed all away..
Dun even give e chance of dates..
unless i felt that it was more of a fren outing..
felt more like im out with op guys..
when e underlying motive was minimised..
a move to protect myself..
from harm..
but i caged myself up instead..
fearful of being reliant on others..
or m i too used to b being alone??

i guess i bottle up..
or mayb not..
i choose to forget..
i choose to b random..
i choose to b under the cover of smiles..

but there was an exception..
is he the ans?
or juz another gd fren?
a buddy to help him destress?

i think its juz my rebellious side..
my future boss called n tried to talk me into going to flinders..
e more she wan me to go, e more i dun..
haha..
rationally, its coz of e honours n pay..
since all e scholars who had been to fliners got honours..
n obviously all e scholars who had been to sydney got honours..
or they cant practise..
so is there a difference?
yes..
3 others accepted flinders..
i dun wanna go there n compete..
in sydney, its by meritocracy..
i get honours as long as i hit the grade..
better than having to b better than 8 to get honours..
rite??

love is not a mulitple-choice question..
wow.. so one shouldnt think so much..
haha..

broke half of my toe nail on wed..
scratched the top layer of skin off..
ouch.. looked nasty too..
n had to wear covered heels e next day..
great..

then there was e award ceremony on thurs..
at moh..
put up a short funny skit..
haha..
felt so real for once..
were we close??
not realliy..
since most r with their jc frens..
not surprising..
oh well..
there r more chances to work tgt in e future i think..

e onli impt part is that this is e start..

then there was D&D with Boonliang and Reuben BDae..
haha.. oriental theme..
oh well..
was more for the food..
n e time tgt..
gonna miss u guys soo..
im not sure when i will see them again..
24h workshop on e 19th..
but im leaving for vietnam on 20th..
unless someone can drive me home after the workshop..
any volunteers??
haha..

gonna b e start of another hectic week..
sch from 10-5 then esplanade for mon n tues..
then work will prob finally start on wed..
tuition on wed n fri..
meeting serxing on thurs!!
Hee..

2008-08-26T16:37:00.005+08:00

This post is super outdated.. haha

My relief teaching stunt was officially over on thurs..
felt a little relief i guess..
no longer hav to be responsible for their grades..
their chem content is half of ours..
can you believe that??
n they hav prob coping..
i wonder why..

went to the UBI driving centre on friday morning..
to create an account for driving practical date..
felt a little cheated as most of my frens said that their instructor did it for them..
oh man.. n i still hav to go online on my own to get the test date coz the timings left were not favourable.. @#$%^&

supposed to have lunch with Mr Goh..
but he had to handle more school matters..
oh well..
thankfully another fren is free n happen to b ard town..
haha.. yeah!!
lunch and death race..
the usher didnt believe im older than 16..
haha.. so happy..
i look young leh..
hehe..

then i met exco ppl!!
so happy!!
had dinner together and watched the fireworks..
had been so long since we met as a huge grp..
wonder when will the next outing b..
gossips!! i wanna hear more gossips!!
hehe..
hope aini will send us the photos soon..
hehe..
at the instant when the fireworks were on,
i felt like as if im in love..
haha..
when will that happen to me??
oh well.. take things as it is..
seems like im holding back alot..
or m i not??

then i sneaked to Batam on sat with pub!!
hehe.. cable ski!!
muscles still aching on tuesday after that..
but it was fun!!
to move on water at such high speed!!
felt that i was in control yet i wasnt..
haha..
we even discussed how to fall off e board..
haha..
fir could ski!!
we spend nearly 2h trying to stand on e ski board..
e guys nearly got it.. **nearly**
haha..
then started to compare learning curve..
haha..
mine was stagnant......

then it was comm dinner treat to breeks!!
food!! after e looong day!!
had pasta with fish.. followed by cookies n cream milk shake..
ended with ice cream and brownie..
high high high calories!!
but i dun care!!
so fun that we juz pass the desserts ard and share..
i doubt there will b another gathering like this anymore..
will miss e short fun times that we had shared tgt..
thank you for adding more colour to my uni life..

Woke up bright n early on 24/8 for the NS AHM..
stored sufficient fats the fat b4 for it..
haha.. hav to thank lynette for running with it..
hee.. she is super motivated to run!!
thanks dear!
felt scary being surrounded by guys..
oh well.. but at least i know i did 10km that weekend..
hee..
felt great overtaking ppl along the way..
took it as training for my 42km!!
daunting tot..
but i can conquer it!!
yes!!

then met up with the guys n took lots of photos!!
lionel! send me e photos!!
haha.. sorry..
apparently im not a camera person..
hee..
so much fun taking photos on e road!!
e road in front of esplanade..
hee.. road all ours..

went for 2 interviews on monday..
with a lunch interval.
so i went to hav it in smu..
hee..
met up with Eliz n PING!!
saw jas and joanna too..
everybody seem to b busy..
n im such a slacker..
haha..
hope that everything will go smoothly for u guys!!
managed to check my mail that day too..
coz my home internet was down on sunday for a week..
sianz..

Set off to meet Pam in NUS on tues..
hehe.. accompanied her to do her lab report..
totally foreign to me..
looked like circuits..
but i do know excel..
haha..
finally returned her cap..
hee..
didnt manage to see others though..
coz i went in e late afternoon..
hee.
but i walked ard with my huge sleeping bag..
kind of embarrassing..
but i dun care..
not like anybody knows me there..
hee..

then i rushed down to NTU for SMRT briefing..
bad choice to take cab la..
hole in e pocket..
should hav taken my own sweet time la..
oh well..
so heart warming to go back to hall again..
see everybody..
so fun!
first time i lost mj terribly..
guess i wasnt concentrating..
tots were all over e place..
e things i did in e hall..
e ppl i met in e hall..
how eventful e short yr stay in hall was..
how much effort i had put in..
how i opened myself up..
n caged myself in..
gonna miss everybody..
take care ppl..

in short, i went to 3 unis in 2 days..
in other words, i went to all the unis in singapore in 2 days..
a feat which i doubt is possible in other countrys.. haha..

then i spend e nite with fidelia n madelyn..
haha.. chatted til 2-3am i think..
woke up at 7am to rush to yck for driving..
m i nuts or wat??
i think i dun hav enough time..
haha.. kenna scolded more than usual..
haha.. oh well..
e fun was worth it..

then was e pre-departure prog on thurs..
took e whole day..
plus rehearsal..
thankfully a dietetic scholar senior spoke to us..
he widened my choices..
so i think im gonna go sydney..
didnt know that the honours in flinders was so competitve..
+ temask poly students will go there..
means more singaporeans..
gd idea??

Fri was rest day!! =)
haha..

2008-08-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

been relief teaching..
filled with disbelief regarding the conduct of the 1st class..
wat happened??
low morale and confidence..
if only they helped each other out..

only 1 class recognised that my face is on the wall..
haha.. glad my hair is shorter now..
will change again after relief teaching..
haha..

my form class self-declared lunch during my period..
but im not angry..
no hopes, no disappointments.. rite?
But their teacher is very disappointed..
hope its a misunderstanding..

wonder how awkward it will be if i were to meet my students in clubs??
haha..

i did 10km today!! but i was realli slow..
shall work on it..
so happY!!

I passed my FTT!!
can start to book my driving test!!
hee.. lalalala..

Poor Pengwee had to remove his appendix..
Get well soon!!
dun over-exert yourself!!

Gonna hav super packed 3 days..
oh man..
zzzz...

i literally took a walk down memory lane e other day..
the times we played with water in sch..
shook e trees and ran after it rained..
catching..
captain's ball..
soccer..
our prefects' room..
some canteen aunties still rmb me..
hee.. so sweet!!

hav yet to receive any reply from unis for 6wks alreadi..
how efficient eh..

2008-08-12T23:39:00.002+08:00

Finally tried e new pizza hut flavour..
haha..
totally in love with fireworks..
haha..
but wat e scholar said is true..
if they reduce the number of times they rehearse with e fireworks,
more scholarships can b given out..
but i think it all boils down the costs & benefits..
mayb having a bit of fun at times are ok..
haha..

Sentosa was fun!!
kind of glad that it rained n drizzled..
then we wun get sunburnt..
haha..
played volleyball n swam..
chilled out..
satisfied.. =)))

Went to JB on mon with my aunt uncle mum n grandaunt..
eat n shop..
eat and shop..
haha..
shall take it as storing glucose..
hehe..
there r soooo many shopping malls!!
i wanna shop more..
if only i hav more money..
i stupidly forgot to bring my card out..
oh well..

wonder how did e QP trip went..

Gonna relief teach for Mr Goh tml..
for a slightly longer than a wk..
wonder how e students will response to me..
scary..
sec 4 & 5s..
i will survive this wk!!
haha..

gonna go back to hall on wed..
missed it so much..

2008-08-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

i had resigned to fate..
haha..
juz gonna take up odd jobs til i go to vietnam..
hope that by then i had decided on a uni n had gone to over to check it out.. haha..
took on 2 more tuitions..
heee..
i need income..

went to ubin today!!
love e sun e sea e jetty e sand e nature e breeze..
n e ppl!!
hee..
if only e whole grp was there..
oh well..
some other time??

we didnt bring alot of cash..
prob due to dependency on NETS..
haha.. n we were nearly stranded on ubin..
will prob hav to swim back or call for ppl to bring cash over for us to pay for the return trip back to main land..
haha.. so funny..
then e bike auntie gave us more discount..
haha.. tactic eh..
haha..
coupled with gd acting skills may do e trick..
hee..

didnt see much at chek jawa..
i wanna go again when its low tide!!

it was a great breakaway from reality..
from e fast paced society..
back to a simple life..
lying on e jetty talking bout life..
de-stressing and relaxing..
at our own pace..
beautiful nature scenery and breeze..
haha.. saw e horn-billed bird..
so nice!!
too bad i cant capture it on camera..
the bikes were quite bad too..
haha.. oh well..
it was memorable..
=)))

2008-08-04T00:57:00.002+08:00

mayb..
at times..
we juz need someone to help us gain our confidence back..
for re-assurance..
for a shoulder to lean on..

life is a test of endurance..
see how much we can take b4 we snap..
rite?

2008-08-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

i feel stranded and lost..
haha..
sch starts tml for ntu..
i can easily imagine myself back in hall..
prob playing mj with some seniors..
haha..
that was e past for me already..
i could be fretting over my timetable..
looks like i hav to wait half a yr more to go thru it again..
missing it already..
haha..
am i nuts or waT??

i think im missing sch..

no use in thinking bout e past??
that is so wrong..
there is so much to learn..
so many reminders to hold on to..
to appreciate everything that we had gone thru..
the lessons to absorb..

but we hav to move on..
thats wat everybody says..

been losing in e battle against myself..
why..
i cant believe it
super disappointed in myself..
is my will power that weak??
y cant i channel it to running?
why?

y do i sound like im so harsh on myself..
m i?

2008-08-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

i was so unlucky for OBS..
the time of the month + sore throat + bruises..
it juz had to join in e fun and come when i reach ubin..
timing cant be any better..

went in with a dry throat which escalated..
accumulated from the mambo night then e running..
+ the insufficient sleep..
i deserved it..

i seem to b bruised easily..
there is a medical condition on that..
mayb i will ask e doc when i go for my full body check up..
haha.. cross my fingers..

the bruises on my legs are terrible..
really bad..
even im scared of them..
haha..

BUT
OBS was fun!!
i reached the top of the height elements!!
actually its more of a hoisted up..
haha.. i think this activity is the sole culprit for creating the bruises on my knee.. haha..
the view was great..
haha..
the sense of achievement was greater..
had always wanted to play that..

then we had to find treasures in a pitch dark tunnel..
cant even see e person in front of u..
n had to cramp in 27 ppl..
i was realli scared..
afraid that i will suffocate..
it was scary..
had to remind myself not to freak out and breathe..
haha..

then e other highlight was e kayaking..
hehe..
my partner is in the national water polo team..
hehe..
she is damn fit!!
so envious.. haha..
then had to do capsize drills.. @(&*#^
had to settle our business in e sea..
gross!!

then there was e jetty jump..
so fun..
it seemed like it took foreva to hit the sea..
haha..

as usual, i had sleeping problems..
oh well.. mayb i should excerise more..
haha..

out of e 28 who turned up..
there were onli 3 guys..
pathetic eh..
haha..
cant realli stand 1 girl..
she will always ask e ppl she is closer with to help do the tasks..
as if e others r not up to mark in her opinion that she ignores them..
its not like as if they had had anything to prove that they r unworthy in any way..
oh well..
thankfully she is in another course..
lower e chance of workin tgt..

there r quite a few takeaways..
to believe in myself more..
listen to others..
e impt of having a voice..
e impt of keeping calm..
e impt of guidance..
e key to communication..
e huge difference of having ppl to support..
e value of fresh air and water..
e value of life..
n wat truely is a need..
n wat are considered as luxury..

there is more to life than wat meets e eye..

after im back from OBS, i didnt go for hall camp..
coz of e sore throat and e bad bruises..
haha..
cant wear shorts nor jeans..
so i decided to stay at home..
then there is a issue of refund..
oh well..

i seem to owe quite a few ppl money..
starting to feel that money is tight..
had to pay e tuition fee loan.. 7k..
omg..
+ driving lessons..
+ ave Q ticket..
+ std charter marathon..
omg..

aklc has yet to give me my pay..
as well as stc..

i wan money.. haha..

been sleeping alot.. hope its enough..

went to the natas fair on fri with my bro n mum..
didnt wanan b alone at home..
took alot of honey drink from the foodfair..
n my throat became better.. amazing..
haha.. there was e watson fair too..
hehe..
shop shop shop..

watched e fireworks tonight..
beautiful!!
in love..
haha
**dreamy**

managed to get e usher job at esp..
yeah!!
get to undergo training..
hope its beneficial..

suddenly, there r so many job offers..
n i juz signed up for a vietnam trip..
hope everyhing will juz work out..

1st driving lesson later!!
n i forgot e time..
shit..
haha..

had to do an item for e award ceremony..
.......

thanks sf for your hard-disk..
hehe..
can watch e movies..
hehe..

im in love with e house series..
omg..

gonna do 10km in e morning..
way to go~~~~~~

2008-07-28T00:25:00.000+08:00

gonna b uncontactable til wed evening..
no reception in ubin..
haha..

hope there isnt anything impt.
haha
so exciting!!

2008-07-27T17:53:00.003+08:00

im nuts to wake up so early in e morning..
oh man..
super lack of sleep now..
hope i can sleep tonight n not b too excited..
haha..

i lost to myself today..
onli managed to run 6km..
sorry guys.. dragged u ppl down..
esp tw who came later..
thank you..
without u guys there i wun hav e motivation to even run 6km..
haha..

leg muscle still aching now.. haha..
which is gd..
means i excerised.. haha..

go again next sun??
haha..

bought my transition glasses today..
omg.. the frame is more x than e lens..
worhtwhile investment??
i hope so..
at least it will stay with me for more than 4yrs while im in Aust..
yup..

been buying so many things..
oh my..
broke..
work!!!
haha.. im nuts..

2008-07-27T00:10:00.002+08:00

is the e lack of slp??
i was at e interchange at e moment my bus came..
waited behind some ppl so i dun Q up..
then i realise that they were waiting for another bus..
then i missed e bus after waiting so long..
omg..
seriously..

n i forgot to apply for pdl..
hav to postpone driving lesson again..
shit man..
feel so dumb..
!$@#%&$*

keep on forgetting to bring things out..
weilin ar!!

so insane..
7AM 10km run..
OMG.. i onli ran 5km b4 sia
haha.. exciting..
so much so that im super awake now..
die.. wrong timing..
haha..

quoting from SX..
slp is paramount.. haha
i wanna sleep la..

received flinders' reply..
hope monash will reply soon..
e only deciding factor is which uni will offer me exemptions..
n that will b e uni..
in a way im leaving it up to faith.. haha

received my personality report the other day from CSC..
hav yet to analyse it.. haha..
sounds true.. for most..
n it stated that i will tend to hop ard..
as in change job or stuff not literally..
haha.. well, its true.. haha

so many things to weigh..
if i do relief teaching n cant continue,
i will end up with office job..
then + driving lessons + tuition + training for std chatered..
sounds so ambitious??
or learn from yilong's quote?
do smth that scares u everyday..
that sounds scary enough already
haha.. im a nut

went to MINDS to volunteer today..
a perfect sanctury for our fast paced urban city..
where time seem to be merciful and slowed down..
where smiles and laughter are genuine..
where ppl's opinion are not impt..
where we are ourselves..
where our inner child are free..
where love is in e air..
where compliments are heard and deeply appreciated..
where it made a difference..
where troubles seemed so minute..
where everything else dun seem to matter..
a place which reminds ppl that material needs are a luxury not a need to survive..

deeply grateful that i volunteered this morning..
i think e disconnection from society is gd every now n then to prevent us from being overly caught up in e material life..
n forgot wat truly is impt..
n wat truly life is about..
n how valueable and unique we are..
n how time should b treasured..

sent dine off today..
will we b taking e same flight e next time??
ahha.. so exciting!!
All e best!!
Miss ya..

2008-07-26T01:10:00.005+08:00

Now i realise y she asked that e other day over the phone..
i was still in my busy lala land then..

we choose wat we wanna feel and believe in..
rite?

Dun like the response then you can choose the alternative.
Which is.. im too busy to reply.

recent case? there is more?
we all clearly know wat im referring to.

super lag but im too busy i guess..
wat tone is that?? up to one to believe what tone it is..

only wanna say things simply..

i will prob add this in my sms in the future that majority prefer this ok?
which prob wun happen anymore. so dun worry.

e purpose of e outings then was simple: dine is back n we wanna hang out. since its hard to confirm if her future weekends was free. we went in THAT weekend.

isnt it contradicting that u said i didnt reply then i replied too late??
not like e group has e habit of punctuality with regards to replying n meeting.

i did not keep e sms. im working on the assumption that e info should be in those mass sms which included time and venue if not no one can confirm attendace.

i guess its deemed to b my fault if i didnt get the hint that u hav sore throat and will wish we go ecp on sat instead of k box..

all of us hav 24h a day.. how many h for who..
will determine how much we know.. rite?
it happens to everyone.

2008-07-25T23:55:00.002+08:00

I officially terminated NTU on monday..
Relieved of 6h of lab.. haha..
Was a little sad coz its byebye..
Wonder when i will be back..
I guess I will treasure those times now instead of taking it as a chore..
haha..

Then helped out to doll up the board.. haha..
hope its still in gd condition..

i wanna watch movies..
so many of them..
sad..

Mambo-ed with the OP gang on wed!!
guess the chance of it happening again will be low..
the music is better than e one is MOS lo..
but it was too crowded.. oh well..
we drunk alot lesser this time round too..
now i sound like an alcoholic.. haha..

then had 2h of sleep at dine's.
n left for workshop at bouna vista til 6.3pm..
Then family dinner..
i survived.. haha..
lame..

Thanks for destroying my mood.
No worries, u wun get it from me anymore.

i think its me..
to leave after things happen..

2008-07-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

Finally a class gathering after so long..
been more than a yr since we last met..
was it considered a success??
at least half e class turned up..
haha..
brought back all e old memories..
when will we ever meet up again??
some will be going overseas..
oh well..
take care til then..

Belinda!! u still hav yet to give me the links..
haha..

it was funny that a guy at another table ordered a plate of dssert for us..
wonder how often it will happen..
haha..
wonder which girl attracted him..
haha..

N how e group dispersed when the surveyor came..
haha.. damn funny..

will always rmb u guys..

then i rushed down to queenstown..
shop shop shop..
i think many of us bought something..

today is the last day of GSS..
i think i bought lots of stuff..
haha.. going broke soon..
haha..

2008-07-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

it was so funny to walk into one of e shops intown..
haha.. to scare ourselves with the price tag..
the sales ppl dun even care bout us la..
haha.. oh well.. its no wonder..
haha..

i actually chiong 4 dvd of 16 episodes in a day..
omg!!
haha.. im nuts... lalala..
too free n nth t do..

Minds cafe is so fun!!
i cant forget e peter couch n potato cough thing..
its so out of e world.. i tot it will b sofa so something like that.. haha..
had so much fun today!!
lets go again..

Thanks Lionel for e car ride!!
haha..

i wan a car too!!
haha..

Should i go for the 42km marathon???
anybody else interested??
sounds like a huge accomplishment if i succeed..
hmmm........

so many choices to make!!
OMG!!

2008-07-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

I finally had e chance to K!
OMG.. haha..
took me so long to go and K though exams ended some time ago..
hehe..
i should start listening more to radio..
b more updated with songs..
haha..

My mum bought e disc!!
Yeah!! gonna be absorbed into watching shows again..
but hav to read e final theory text too.. sian..
so many many many pages..

HaV TO Thank guoyuan..
his hp went flat coz of me..
oops..

My virgin visit to the old changi hospital..
heard sooo many ghost stories..
haha.. sooo fun!
Hav to thank my partner, Zhao Wen.
he is so gentle.. haha..
coz i hav a bit of night blindness..
prob due to the lasik..
it was soo dark esp at pengwee's station la..
thankfully it didnt rain..
thankfully it wasnt too late when we went in..
it wasnt scary since e ppl inside are frens..
haha.. i think i was very rational too..

The red tea logan is sooo nice..
cant forget the taste..

Thankfully Pengwee allowed me to stay over at his house..
Hav to thank the others too.. for the company..
haha.. Thanks guys!!
watched saw 4 and some haunting movie..
talked til 4+5pm i think..
Manson slept so early and even did a stunt..
haha.. so funny!!
Poor Pengwee had to spend e night in e room too..
Sorry!
His house is soooo big la.. Rich kia..
so envious.. so many rooms..
n e rooms are so big..
n his mum is so kind and gentle..
haha..

Then i went to ecp to rollerskate~~~
Woo!!
so fun!!
this is the only time that i fell the most..
i should skate more..
its time.. haha..
im nuts..
Saw my uncle running for the marathon..
way to go!!
haha..

then when there is less than 30mins to the end..
a storm started to brew in e sea..
as how mal decribed..
a scene in the pirates movie..
haha..
n we were all drenched..
first time that i skated in e rain..
the wind was sooo strong..
so much resistance..
scary..
then we had lunch and played arcade..
first time i played the dance revolution machine..
was so retarded.. haha..

then we chilled out at belinda's house..
she was so thrilled by the popcorns..
haha.. n the container melted..

im gonna miss times like these..
miss u guys..

2008-07-11T23:24:00.003+08:00

Yeah!! I passed my BMT..
haha..
like wat wb said..
2 more tests to go..
how encouraging..

well, moving on..
there is e final one to look forward to..
im 1 step closer..

Today is e baby's last day at my house..
no more cuddling..
she is so cute..
oh well..
life goes on..
she grows sooo fast..

The highlight of the day!!
Jas' Hiphop concert..
its juz realli hip hop..
i guess i dun realli know how to appreciate it..
but the 'must-hav' moves are there..
it was quite obvious that some had ballet background..
haha.. so it didnt hav e hip hop feel..
not bad though..
they realli used the lights..
Would be more of an eye-opener if e setting didnt start with the streets i guess..
came across more of step-up..
thats juz my 2-cents worth..

Met Alison, Belinda n Elizabeth..
Gossiped bout the past..
missed e old sch days with our group of 'guys'
haha.. will the class outing ever come true??
we shall see eh..
All the best girls!!
Take care..

YanPing was there..
if only..
missed u sooo much..

got a feeling im gonna sleep on e streets on sat night..
sad..

Thurs to Sun

2008-07-11T00:55:00.002+08:00

OMG!! my life is so happening..
haha..

went to li house to cook lunch n play MJ!!
hands were so itchy..
haha..
the lunch was gd!
Coz i cooked it..
not totally..
haha.. so fun!
Let's do it again someother time??

Gonna get transition lens..
So exciting.. haha..

BTT on fri at 11am!!
Woohoo!!
then i can take driving lessons..
any recommendations for instructorS??
cant wait to get my hands on e wheel..

SMU concert on fri..
JIayou Jas!!
Wonder if dinner is on..
hmmm...

Sat K-box session!!
finally i can K..
yeah!!
then.. gonna go to Changi V for OCH night hike..
scary??
Hope not.. haha..

then gonna stay over at someone's place..
anybody can lend me their house for a night?
need to catch a bit of sleep..

Sun going to ECP!!
Yeah!!
Sunshine!!
Roller skate!!
Cycling!!
OMG!!
soooo looking forward to it..

haha.. m i a nut??
haha.. life is gd..
Will b better if i pass my BTT!!
haha.. instant resutls..
Wish me luck!!

ICeskating on wed..
anybody?

I wanna go out!

2008-07-06T17:35:00.002+08:00

My OBS is re-scheduled..
28/7 to 30/7..
clash with hall camp..
oh well..

OP Gang!!
K box!
Option 1:
12/7 - 11am to 2pm
Option 2:
26/7 - 2pm to 7pm
Partyworld at somerset..
Choose!!
Let me know..

its rare that im initiating hor..
u guys better reply.. haha..
im so mean..

I have a K-box vocher..
$10 off for K golden session..
but only can be used for sun to thurs..
anybody interested??

There is another 50% off Night safari admission.
valid for max of 5 tickets..
But it does not include tram ride..
there may b additional charge..
dunno..
Valid in August..
but anybody is interested??

There is another 30% off Jurong Bird Park admission..
valid for 5 tickets too..
valid til end of August..
Anybody?

I wanna go out..

2008-07-06T15:42:00.004+08:00

OMG!!
5th July is e best day ever!!
haha..
was in a state of ecstasy ytd..
NDP preview..
Thanks Wei Kang & Pamela!! =)

haha.. its prob e last NDP i will watch before I get my degree..
so gonna miss e singing part..
N e foreworks!!
it was such a touching sight..
so so beautiful..
love the fireworks..
N e planes display!!
so cool!!
I always watched it with friends..
when will e change come?
can i marry a pilot in e future??
haha..
will i ever hav e chance to b in e plane??
The marching was so smart..
man in uniform seem to look smarter..
haha.. i was too high..

the company mattered too!!
gonna miss all e times we had tgt..
i suppose that coming from the traditional conservative chinese family,
i do not really know how to express myself fully..
there is so so much that i wanna say to u..
but i dunno how to..
Juz gratitude from our friendship..
learnt so much for u..
thank you..
haha.. my heart feels so heavy..
take care hor..
Gonna miss u lots..

i hav yet to see the photos from the WOW! program.
haha...
but my first trip to the Images of Singapore was unforgetable.
all e history of Singapore..
how far we had come..
contributions by our forefathers..
treasure everything..
treasure every opportunity..
wish i can go there again..
but to enjoy it..
to savour every part..
anybody interested??
it will cost $33 though..
Let me know!!

After taking photos with pam..
i went to MOS with OP gang!!
Cool! Smashing! Fun!
its e company that mattered..
not e venue..
though im very sick of MOS already.. haha..
didnt know ppl can get that crazy..
was so high!!
can i hav e photos??
haha
will we go again??

Thanks Jiahui for accomodation!!
haha.. without that i wun b able to go..
haha..
n we chatted til 6am..
haha.. nuts..
guess that happens when u place 2 ladies tgt..
haha..

Dine.. sorry..
cant hear u over e loud music..
haha.. enjoy e short break b4 sch starts again!!
which is quite soon rite??
missing u!!

Most Importantly!
Happy Birthday Mark!!
your card is still in my bag..
haha.. sorry.. pass to u some other day..
thanks for everything pal!
thank you.

Hav some talk on monday..
hope i dun fall asleep..
haha..
I got rejected by Kings..
haha.. oh well..

2008-07-03T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hope that Minli's mum will recover soon!! =)
haha.. soon.. being held up by taking care of the baby..
she is so cute.. haha..
n i forgot that baby comes with a smell
haha..

Gd news!!
im so so lucky..
managed to book my BTT for next fri!
Yeah! im so so lucky!!
haha..
N!!

i got NDP preview tickets!!
im going with hao ren!!
Yeah!! havent watched it since P5!!
haha..
oh my god.. haha..

Life is gd!! haha..
im going gaga..

n i hav been procrastinating..
weilin ar!!
haha..
yesyesyes!!
move it move it moveit..

anybody wanna go suntec on sat afternoon?
there is a health convention going on..
anybody??

Gd News & Bad News

2008-06-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

been watching so many movies lately..
haha.. movie junkie..
hehe..
watched 21, wanted, kungfu panda, get smart..
did i miss any out?
haha..

Lets start with the bad news..
haha..
Lost my atm card n my bro's ezlink card..
damn.. so irritated..
had to make report in e middle of e night..
thanks guys for acccompanying me..
haha..

n i was a shield for my boss from e parents..
any error then its my fault..
$%^&**&^%$#$%^&*
last day??
Mon.. wanna finish copy & paste some info..
then im off!!
WoooOOOooHOooOOoOoo
Glad that i made some frens..
learnt how to speak in a nicer manner..
practised my excel skills..
learnt e impt of working for something that i like...

Gd news..
im free..
hehehehehehehe..
can slp til i wake up naturally..
wah!! luxury.. haha..
Lets go out!!

Hao-ren!! Ubin!! Ubin!! Ubin!!
haha.. i wanna go..

OP guys!! K-box!! K-box!!
Clubbing on sat???

So many frens r attached..
so happy for u guys!!
May everything go smoothly!! =)
So exciting.. haha..

Now i shall go back to daydreaming..
haha.. Mayb i will come back with my bai ma wang zi..
haha..

Hao-ge! i wan e books..
haha..

Dine!! cant see e mouse on e flower lo..
haha.. Miss u so!!

2008-06-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

My JOb is terrible..
had to hole-punch 19 sets of 214pg manuals..
n the puncher can only take 7 sheets of paper at a time..
the first joint of every finger are red..
with 2 paper cuts.. haiz..
but i got pengwee to help me out..
haha.. juz got to do Mooncake project for him..
Yeah!! haha..

I cant go UK anymore..
Coz they cant give me clinical placement..
so im going to AUSTRALIA!!
Mayb Uni of Sydney..
Mayb Flinders..
SHall take my time to decide..

Now i have so many choices on wat to do..
I wanna learn driving and get my license in JAN 09!
I wanna help to my aunt during her roller skating lessons..
I wanna go Tan Tock Seng to intern..
I wanna have fun and play!!
I wanna shop!!
I wanna read e books that MayPo recommended!!
I wanna go OBS!
I wan money....

haha..
Should i help my hall's production??
Should i go the extra mile to go back to NTU every mon?
i dunno leH..

have to think bout packing lo!
wat to pack..
wah!!
so exciting..
havent been able to sleep for e past 3 nights..
haha..
been daydreaming so much..
haha..
Life without stress is so fun!!

2008-06-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

Quoted from the movie Robinson

Around here, however, we don't
look backwards for very long.

We keep moving forward, opening up new doors,
doing new things, because we're curious.
and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths

yup..
lets not b quiters!
Work towards wat we want to achieve in life!

Since either uni allow me b a Dietician..
There is no problem!
Im juz given more time to prepare..
at least i get to spend CNY n e festive seasons with my family every yr!
yupyupyup!
prob will apply for UK for fun..
see if im gd enough for them..
haha.. since i had done my personal statement..
oh well.. haha..

time to learn how to b smarter..

2008-06-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

it had only been a few days..
N i learnt so so much..

Through working, i realised that i hav yet to learn how to handle nasty customers.
haha.. it was a tough experience.
e first time in a long while that im fury..
at least i noe for sure im a human now..
haha..

with a boss who loves to change his mind..
how to work?
i wanna help e customers..
but he cant tell me how..
how??
kenna scolding day in day out lo..
sounds easy??
haha.. i was on e brink of tears..
but then its not worth my tears..

well e company concentrates on delivering gd lessons but not on customer service..
too bad for them then..
im jus a temp..
do i sound like a quitter??
but im at my wits end..

This is quite dumb..
i hav no idea why MOH allow me to go UK to study but they didnt recommend any UK uni in e list..
there r onli aust uni in e list..
previous scholars went to sydney and flinders..
N flinders is in aldelaide!!
DINE!!
Of course if i were to go aust,
more time for preparation..
more time to play first..
can learn so many things first..
more time to prepare..
more friends in aust too..

wanna go UK for e exposure..
but e end result from either country is e same..
should i be so persistent bout UK?
or let e chance go??

2008-06-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
I got my MOH scholarship ytd!!
I think i went crazy last night..
haha.. OMG..
waited a yr for it..
Omg.. haha..

i received an email bout it..
hardcopy will come soon..
it better.. haha..

BEen looking through e Uni..
they onli allow UK or Aust.
UNi Shopping time!!

haha..
but i realised that if i were to go Uk..
will leave in AUG!!
If i go Aust, will leave in FeB..
haha..
my life is so fast-paced now..

so many things going on my head..
Cant slp last nite..
haha.. OMG..

so many loose ends to tie..
N at this time i had to work..
jua great..

so many applications to do..
termination n registration..

so many things to buy..
cant procrastinate anymore since e stuff will b more x..

OMG..

But i will b going for senior Camp 2..
i wanna play MJ!! haha..
e last time i can play it in hall..
haha..

i wanna go K n ice-skate too!!
will i hav e chance??

Gonna miss u guys soooooo much..
bout time i change my blogskin eh..
its getting mouldy..
haha.. soon..

Treated Kel to dinner on my first day of work..
Kel u should b proud.. haha..
tried Sake.. haha..
so warm!! then i turned red..
haha..
e dinner was gd n reasonably priced..
haha..
That cant b e farewell dinner hor!
=P

The earth continues to spin no matter wat happens..

hima

2008-06-11T22:56:00.002+08:00

YES!!
No more studying for 1 1/2 mth at least.. haha..

IT was soo fun!!
Stayed over at Qifen's room..
Borrowed Guo Yuan's sleeping bag..
Borrowed Wei Xiong's pillow..
haha..

but i still cant fall asleep..
not accustomed to e traffic noise..
n someone smsed me at 2am..
kept tossing n turning..
my whole back is aching like no body's business..

OMG.. still hav yet to receive anything from MOH/MOE..
cant stand being held in suspense..

I hope that my Jap will pull my GPA up!!
Prob will go to a CC n learn Jap.. haha..
shall take that into consideration..
haha..

Went out with SerXing today..
Lunch, Movie, Shopping!!
indulged myself for once..
cant rmb when was e last time i can shop at ease..
now i hav to start to worry bout earning money..
LoBangs??
haha..

Now i hav to start doing all e chores that i had pushed away..
Its time to start..
My life is back..
this is so exciting..

Anyway.. went to watch Kongfu Panda..
Its quite inspiring..
To go for your dreams..
Everything happens for a reason..
Juz need to find e right motivation..
N there is no secret recipee..
its all in us..

I WANT MY MOH SCHOLARSHIP!!
haha.. oxymoron..

2008-06-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

haha.. i didnt blog for so long le..
so many things happened..

JH!! I wanna go out with u too..
shopping o shimasho!!
haha.. means lets go shopping!! keke

WeiCong! How can u reveal my secrets??
Now everyony know leH!!
How to carry out my plan??
haha.. i think i found a job at Novena..
Go for Lunch someday k!!
u still owe me my birthday present. =P

Yes, TW.. its time for me to update..
haha.. thanks for dropping by though im known not to update often..
haha..

Nadine!! I received your card..
so sweet.. juz like u..
Cant wait for u to b back!!
Missed ys lots n lots n lots..

e other day, i saw your mum n li's mum on e same day..
haha.. wat a day..
missed going to your house dine!!
n missed having u at my house..

been working hard for my Jap..
but i still screw up my listening and oral..
how often do u hear that from me??
haha.. shall not take another lang anymore..
prob will learn outside..haha..

was busy with my CCA..
theatre woes..
omg.. cant believe that we hav to take so much risk..
how to slp at night?? haha..
been discussing and contemplating..
Gonna call them on monday to clear my doubts which had been bugging me..
haha.. before we can come to a conclusion..
well.. somehow i believe that we will pull it off..

Went skating the other day..
or was it last mth??
haha.. went with Aini, Anita, Pam n Zhiyan..
Thanks for the cake!!
RMB e date on e 1st Sat of August!!
=) Missed e sun n e fun..
Lets go again soon??

N we celebrated Lionel's BDae at cafe cartel..
my first meal there leh.. haha..
21st le wor.. B mature le bah.. =P
Girls go for mature guys k!!

Been feasting since my birthday..
Lobster porridge.. Veg Dinner
New York New York.. Cafe cartel..
Ajisen.. V8 movie cafe..
n all e QP meetings at e different restaurants..
N i havent been excerising..
Oh no.. haha..

Been watching movies too!!
so fuN!! i miss watching movie with e guys..
haha.. movie movie movie..

Had made new friends with my Jap classmates..
dunno y but they r all guys.. 3 guys..
haha.. oh well.. e result of sitting at e back of e class..
haha.. oops.. i think e teacher dun like me..
haha.. mayb i think too much..

i had a new haircut..
erm..i will most probably stick to long hair in e future..
haha.. had enough of experimenting with my hair.. haha..

Got back my grades..
Far cry from wat i expected..
did i expect too much??
i dun think so..
was disappointed by my maths..
i went to appeal though.. hehe..

at last e terrible week was over....
listening on tuesday.. they spoke like bullet train..
argh..
oral on thursday.. heard some stuff wrongly..
argh..
interviews on friday..
haha..
MOE was quite angry bout e fact that i rejected them last yr..
haha.. n asked y did i still apply again..
not sure if i managed to convince them.. haha..
not sure if i will take it up again or not..

Was alerted by Mark..
who said that there is a chance that e job market will b saturated by e time e dragon babies graduate.. so unless we r e cream of e top..
it may b hard to find a job..
will that happen to me?? dunno..
haha..

After that went to New York New York for my birthday treat.. hehe..
Thanks Mark!! Was so full.. hehe..
Hope that my waist will not expand too much.. haha
n saw Shu Long..
i was so mean sia.. he said he realised that he didnt hav my number..
n i said so? n walked away..
omg.. im so mean.. haha.. walked back to his stall later but he is not there already..
oops..

Then e most crucial interview with MOH!!
i wasnt sure how long my interview was.. but i felt that it was short..
they nodded and smiled n laughed through..
gd signs??
i dunno..
results out next wk!! =)
dun dare to check my emails anymore.. haha..

then went to celebrate QianYi's 21st birthday..
Happy Birthday!! its e start of adulthood..
n i was e youngest there..
will hanging ard with old ppl make me age faster?
haha.. juz kidding.. haha..

i think my mum is starting to get worry that im still single..
haha.. lalalalala..
i believe that e time will come soon..

Hao Ren!! u r back!!
lets go out!!
hehe.. them can tell me how was your trip!!

I wanna go K!! GUYS!! SAT!!
wanna go K?? haha

i wanna go n roller skate..
i wanna go night cycle..
when is e chalet coming??
Mal.. chalet.. Mal.. Chalet..
haha.. im gaga..

i wanna go shopping..
i wanna money too..
haha..

i wan my MOH scholarship too!!

Gonna go out after my paper!!
lalalalal..

looking forward to alison's gathering!!
cant wait for you to b back from your trip too!!

Do i sound abnormal??
my Jap written exam is on wed..
yet, here i am blogging..
N im already daydreaming..
thinking of wat to do after it end..
haha..

Will i be able to go to e shorter route??
Will i be given e chance that i had been waiting for?
that i had been dreaming of?
Will i have the chance to go Sydney to study?
Will i live e life that i had been thinking of for soooo long?

2008-05-19T23:36:00.002+08:00

My birthday!
Vesak Day!

So m i blessed for e year?? haha..
I hope that i can b a blessing to those around me too!!

Thanks everybody for remembering my birthday!
Im so touched..

Coz i hav to admit that im not really a gd fren..
hardly ever ard coz im a workaholic..
sorry..

BUT!! im juz a phonecall away..
whenever u need it..
whenever u guys r bored..
haha..

so many things happened..
now im 20..
feel like im in a drama serial..
if my life was made into a movie..
i think everybody would hav fallen asleep..
haha..

time to start thinking again..
bout wat i want in life..
n how to achieve that..
yup..

but let me deal with Jap n e MOH interview first..
haha..

im still a procrastinator..
AH!!

DINE!! Missed u so!
I look so tired in e photo...
haha.. time to do smth bout it..
SLP!!

U muz take care too!
Work is never-ending..
* i dun practise wat i preach eh..*
haha..

Jiahui is back!!
I wanna go out!! kekeke

2008-05-15T21:55:00.002+08:00

help

im going nuts!

im really a nutcase..

i cant believe this..

OMG!

having jap listening test on e 3rd jun then MOH interview on 4th jun and jap oral test on e 5th jun..

WTH! as if e stress i experienced during the exam wasnt enough..

WEILIN!! Y!!

im a nut.. y do i do this to myself?

y did i take special sem??
y cant i juz rest??

NONONO!! these questions hav to go!

Stick to it to the end!!
WEILIN AR!!
BREATHE!!

take it as a test..
n like all tests..
u will do well..
now i hav 2 weeks..
breathe..

b mentally prepared..
i need to calm down..

2008-04-25T15:49:00.002+08:00

My exams had ended once again..
n it this is the first time that i had worked so hard..
all coz my papers r cramped tgt..

i studied til my eyes are blur..
i pushed on til my hands start to shiver..
i cant believe that i pushed my limit so damn far..
n i hav not snapped.. haha..
means more will come?

now.. i can hardly concentrate on my last ppr on tues..
i hav yet to touch it at all.. shit..
gonna start soon i hope..

hav to thank all who gave me encouragement..
thank you so so much..

i hav yet to rest since qp ended due to the tons of tut n tests..
n i felt that i had neglected my studies too much..
so i priortised my time..
n that was e end result..

i lost my life..
i lost focus of wat im doing..
i lost time and youth n frens..

now that im more level headed..
im stressed..
is this wat i realli want to do?
go into chem n get a degree..
then?
study so hard every sem..
try my best for a gd gpa..
then?

do i realli wanna b a dietitian?

i muz really want it..
though there is a reluctance to leave..
its not easy to leave e comfort of home..

but its e 21st century..
its my life..
its bout time to stop wasting time!!
WEILIN AR!!

muz b clear bout e end destination..
YES.. that is it..
time is precious..

2008-04-17T20:34:00.002+08:00

MOE contacted me..
should i?

my bro is against it though..

how to study if i hav so many things on my mind??

2 papers down..
stress wk incoming!
23/4
1-3: 211
24/4
1-3.30: physic
5-7: Econs 2

Life is great..

I got Jap for special sem in May!!
Then i can buy some time to contact NUH for work..
hehe.. means i wun b home again..
Volunteering as usual in June..
2 Camps in july..
Sch starts in Aug..
oops i did it again..

steal

2008-04-17T19:55:00.002+08:00

Reality is harsh

When a situation occurs..
rationally, e victim will tell someone bout it..
But how much will the outsider know?
will you update e person of what happen later?
so he/she will get the whole story?
i doubt so..
its under situations like this that ppl will get negative impressions of the culprit rite?

then again..
What is the verdict for the cuplprit?
How much will you believe the culprit?
It may appear that THAT is the reason.. there is no doubt bout it..
But, there can be a hundred n one possible reasons.. or even more..
yes?no?

n wat if e reason is e most mild one and not the most negative one?

logically, if a person is fuming, they will juz ratter anything..
including the most negative reason..
n wats e outcome?
it may b exaggerated.. which oso means untrue.. rite?
n then u had destroyed the image of e person in e other person..
is it a sweeping statement of mine?

does that mean we cant tell others anything?
so as to not ruin things for others??
i dunno..

but i juz got smacked by reality...
e extensive effects..
how to salvage matters??
sometimes it better to leave it alone?
but by not explaining, r we agreeing that its true?
but if we do, will they believe everything?
deep acting and surface acting..
how much is the truth?

e whole stunt made me feel like walling myself up again..
like wat i did in jc..
walking ard like im in my own world with a small grp of frens..
shutting out everybody else..
unconcerned bout anything else besides wat happened in my well..

N here i tot, i can open up again..
coz everybody has their own timetable..
e prob that such incidents will occur is lower..
its e same feeling as being accused rite??
At least in e court, ppl r let off is they r innocent..

Then a kind soul said that...
we should not judge others by their mistakes..
everyone makes mistakes..
no one is infallible..

How many will do that??
Unless it happened to them i suppose..
isnt that e reality?

Sometimes, there r so many sides to it..
n so many possibilities..

2008-04-04T19:31:00.002+08:00

改變自己

詞曲:王力宏

今早起床了
看鏡子裡的我
忽然發現我的髮型睡的有點KUSO
一點點改變
有很大的差別
你我的力量也能改變世界

最近比較煩
最近情緒很Down
每天看新聞都會很想大聲尖叫
但髒話沒用
大家只會嫌兇
我改變自己發現大有不同
新一代的朋友我們
好好的加油
大家一起大聲說
Na Na Na Na Na~

我可以改變世界
改變自己改變龜毛改變小氣
要一直努力努力永不放棄
才可以改變世界
C'mon 改變自己

今早起床了
覺得頭有點痛
可能是二氧化碳太多氧氣不夠
一點點改變
有很大的差別
你我的熱情也能改變世界

只能代表自己
沒有政治立場
即使這世界讓我看得十分緊張
要調整自己
恩~
沒想到一點就能畫龍點睛

i think i got promoted..
haha..
wat a funny statement eh..

never occured to me that its a potential problem..
haha.. will get a bf help?? haha..
im nonsensical..
oh well..
time to hit e books..

crazy exam timetable..
so fun sia..
I CAN DO IT!
COS IM WEILIN FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!

i declare im nuts.. haha..
a nutty life for a nut..
there goes the nut..

2008-03-29T20:15:00.002+08:00

Im such a greedy person..
Wants:
- I wanna go overseas with my frens!!
I dun care!!
- Go on e Bungee rides
- Go n e DHL Balloon b4 the yr ends..
( its prob closing at the end of e yr!!)
- wanna see hailstones..
- wanna experience earthquake

M i nuts or what??
haha.. life is all about being part of the experience rite??

I realised i had e most fantastic exam table time sia..
16th - 5 to 7 pm
17th- 1 to 3..

23th - 1-3pm
24th 1-3, & 5-7pm

shiok rite??
e only thing to counter is to study NOW!!
haha..

was so troubled previously..
then a simple fact popped up in my head..
It is a sign even if there isnt a sign..
hehe.. solved everything..
n e last time i checked, im warm-blooded..
so im not malfunctioning..
but there is nth..
hehehehehehehehe..
life is gd..

Studystudy!!

love

2008-03-24T17:43:00.002+08:00

i feel like a flirt..

Quoted from daddy number 2:
sometimes i feel even if ppl treat u nice, be it becoz they are interested in u or be it becoz they treat u like little sis or anything
i tink it's really up to u to decide if u should reciprocate or not. just hafta know the limits

can ppl stop being nice to me??
so i dun hav to make e choice?

its like a sin to b cruel to ppl who r extra extra nice to u..
but its always better to b clear from e start..
but how??

i dun blieve in love at first sight..
i only trust relationships that r build up over time..
- that means that there is a high tendency that i will give ppl e wrong impressions n lead them on.. rite??

to prevent that.. i will been like a porcupine..
pushing everybody away..

should i continue coz im still young??
i dunno.. im so lost..
where is my heart??
can u tell me something?
what do u want?

i noe that i wanna find THE ONE..
not wanna b a sinner to waste everybody's time..
go by elimination??
haha.. sounds like im doin a MCQ Paper..

if i were to question if i like someone means i dun??
but feelings develope over time rite??
im totally contradicting myself..

if u realli like someone..
does criteria applies?

take things slow??

suddenly feel so vulnerable..
sadded..

Just be myself..
treat everybody equal as friends!!
Friends Foreva ppl..
now i can get on to study..
hehe..

mayb im feeling this way solely coz i know of e taste of rejection..
n not wanna b e advocator..
yup..

Pam

2008-03-21T17:11:00.002+08:00

From Pam:

Dear friends,
as part of my YEP (youth expedition project) team's fundraising efforts, we will be selling tshirts. [ one for $12, two or more for $10 each ]. more info is in the attachments, like where does the money exactly go to. our target is $5K, so we really need all the help we can get. please help me forward to ur friends. thanks so so much for your help. we will appreciate the effort.

you can fill up the order form in the microsoft word file (in attachment) or contact me at 81231915 or email me back. we can work out some arrangements for collection.

also, you can go to this website: http://www.walk-infelicity.blogspot.com/ for further updates.

thanks on the behalf of our YEP team and the Laotians from Luang Prabang.

shop for a good cause,

pam
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Now sure how much help it would do by posting it..
But.. DO get a shirt!!

i guess everybody is a little bored of e 'for a gd cause ' phrase..
then take it as its for their hard work n efforts??
hehe..

By living in our society,
it may b common to overlook e less fortunate..
esp if they r not in out midst..
so do a little gd everynow n then, k??
For gd karma.. haha.. no harm too!
its prob juz 2 Mac meals less..
haha..

there is so much more that one can do..
but everybody hav their right to choose..
I think its not too much to expect 1 to buy a shirt??
hee.. do help~~

OMG

2008-03-21T16:19:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
the last time i blogged was in Jan..
haha.. oops..
n here i m hoping that dine will update hers more often..
haha..

Soo many things happened!! How to start??
Start from Dine's farewell party..
Was glad that it wasnt a crying event after all !! =)
= Happy memories for all!!
haha.. literally..
Wonder where r e photos..
I wan e Photots!! LIONEL!! VanessA!!
haha.. im so demanding.. OOps..

Then, Jan came with an end..
Which spelt the start of my 'busy-ness'
had to co-ordinate the posters n banners for the student fund event..
which was done badly..
n i didnt even had time to make an effort to publicise it among my frens..
-> my fault..
it was a rushed event due to bad co-ordination..
n it shrunk from a team of 4 to 2 for publicity..
no one else to share e load..
Oh well.. they managed to achieve their goal in the end..
heard that there were a bit of unhappiness.. hmm.. Ignorance is bliss..
let me be in my lala land..

Then, there was my hall's musical!!
All thanks to ... i had to do e lights!!
it was a painful journey with lots n lots n lots of sacrifice..
started everything from scratch with less than 2wks to production..
all the late nights for discussion.. all the early mornings for meetings..
all the effort in putting everything tgt..
bottomline: at least i learnt something..
From Boon Liang: what doesnt destroy u, will make u stronger..
i pushed my limits.. to shoulder all e exhaustion..
to pump my energy level up to survive.. haha.. im a surviver!!
if not, i wun b blogging still..
found out more about my physical limits..
amazed bymy will power.. I CAN DO IT!
End result- there are lights!!
haha..

the first day of performance was bad..
im so sorry for those who turned up..

But, e 2nd day was a SHOW!!
haha.. all e efforts paid off..
n its e time that i used e most vulgarities in 2h.. haha..
n its e intercom ppl who were fortunate enough to hear it.. haha..

Seen so much of manson that whole wk.. haha.. day in, day out..
we motivated each other i guess..
or it could hav been e desire to excel..
thats e result when u put 2 perfectionist tgt..

there were so much opportunity cost..
guess it inevitably lead to unhappiness here n there..
but it was all bcoz all wanted to perfect their role..
amazed by e level of committment!!
that is how a committee should be..
n we helped each other out however we can..
i guess thats y ppl say its e journey that mattered..
made so many frens.. thats hall life..

was isolated from e backstage fun by being trapped in e control room..
didnt hav much of a chance to take photos.. haiz..
hav to thank hordes of ppl.. haha..
if not, i wun b able to pull through..

Had my share stomching tears.. poor stomach..
haha.. n e takeaway food was bad.. haha..

the control room was so cold!! i WORE 6 LAYERS..
n im in Singapore!! haha.. first time ever..
hope that its e last time too..

i had fever on e night of e eve of e production..
cool eh.. was shivering in e hostel though i had 3 layers on..
n it wasnt raining..
Realised that im more awake when i hav insufficient slp.. haha..

Thank U those who turned up to support me!!

that signalled e end of feb..
in short, my feb was filled with meetings n meetings..
for preparation for the production n the student fund event..

Oh.. there was the CNY..
cant celebrate.. so was stuck at home..
played majhong.. seems like this is not gonna b my lucky yr..
humph..
had a fair share to hongbao too.. haha..
n some r still laying around in my room.. somewhere..

Then, e day came for dine to depart..
me n jh did last minute shopping for her..
It was all for u!!
It was all tears of Joy!!
GO n Pursue your dreams!!
u will always b in my heart..
We had been real close..
i will always treasure those times..
n im juz a phonecall/webcall away k??

N its e first time i cried on a train..
i think that i looked like i juz got dumped.. haha..
from changi to redhill i think..
all e memories juz swarmed in..
it didnt help when my MP3 is filled of emo songs.. haha
Guess, u were really a big part of me..
PPl only learn to treasure after they lost it..
Hav to thank Daddy number 2 for walking me back..
missed e last bus.. haha..

e first time i felt tired coz of crying..

DINE!! Stay healthy n Safe!!
Nth else is as impt..
rmb to hav your meals..
Missing u!!

then there was V Day..
My 19th lonely V Day..
haha.. at least i had dinner with a guy..
an improvement?? haha..
this is an ideal eg of how misunderstandings can arise from not knowing e whole pic..
the dinner was a meeting for lights AGAIN.. haha..
sad.. oh well..

everyday is V-Day when we r attached!!
Awaiting for it.. to make up for all the lst V-Days.. hehe..

I forgot..
did we celebrate mal's BDae??
oh no.. my memory..

Anyway.. March spelt e start of my mid-term..
other courses had it b4 e recess wk..
Thankful that mine is after it..
haha..
e first week was a Mad Rush!!
assignments n tests!
tried my best..
could hav done more..

im amused by my grades.. haha..
but muz not b complacent!!

Decided to hav a bit of fun.. hehe..
Went to MOS with my roomie, n neighbours on wed nite..
hehe.. we drunk n danced!!
so fun..
my first clubbing experience.. if u dun count hall n nus bashes.. haha..
Ladies' night out!!

Had my second experience 2 days ago..
hehe.. went with 5 guys this time round..
a whole diff mood.. had 2 heart-borken guys in our midst..
oh well.. felt more like we r there to accompany them..
danced til e club closed.. n cab back at 6am..
felt so proected.. haha..
someone described it as clubbing with uncles..
haha.. oh well..
I survived through my 2h lect without dosing off..
n earned a lunch!! so looking-forward to it..
gonna b my motivation for my quizes next wk..

Had my communication presentation..
on communication.. haha.. lame..
got a A- though.. hehe..
so proud of myself..
but its a pass-fail mod..
oh well..
gd grades does not mean that im a gd communicator..

i applied for PSC again..
Will i get through to e interview again??
wat m i going to say??
haha.. i hav no time to read e news!!
shit!! how to comment bout anything??
anyone with online straits times account??
hehe..

Today is Gd Friday..
a short break..
supposed to b at my uncle's place..
abandoned the plan..
hav to catch up with all e tut that i neglected due to e Quizes..
e best part is, there r more to come.. all e way til exams..
Juz great.. CHiong ar!!
im a survivor.. haha..
gonna bury myself in books n lib soon..

Hope that all of u r well..
sorry if i didnt make time for u..
i can send 1000 sms now!! hehe..
will sms u guys one by one..
kekez..

Jia you Jia you Jia you!!
Life is made up of your choices and how u want to see it..
in short, its all bout u!

Departure..

2008-01-15T00:15:00.001+08:00

Had a 3h break today in sch..
FLashback of e chalet..
Flashback of sec sch times..
Falshback of dine n me..

Then imagined e scene on 10th Feb..
N 5 drops of tears rolled down..
Kept questioning myself..
To control or not to on that day?

To control:
make it easier on her when its prob e most difficult thing to do..
a form of moral support..
Hoppe that she will b strong too.. though it aint gonna b easy..
See her bright beautiful smile with glittering eyes!!
Let it b a happy event!!
Show that im veri veri happy for her!!

May everything b smooth-sailing for u!!
will lend u my lady luck when im done with her on 20th.. haha

OP Chalet!!

2008-01-14T23:50:00.000+08:00

Most imptly:
Thanks Dine!! Thanks for doing everything!!
without u.. it wun happen + i wun b there..
haha..

Thanks Lionel for e shirts!!

Thanks Wei Cong n Yilong for cooking n cleaning!!

Thanks for putting out e fire too!!
haha.. so memorable!!
Not many chalets hav that rite??
haha.. if onli we did a campfire song..
Im nuts..
haha..

N i still owe Li n Kat money..
hope i dun forget..

The first day was juz MJ..
So proud of myself!!
Had supper e previous night til 3am with less than 5h of slp then i managed to stay awake til Sat 9am..
hehe.. then had a nap til 1+pm with 5 calls in between..
ZZZzz..
I accidentally called home at 2am..
then kenna scolding.. oops..
Was surprised that my mum is so lax with me..
kekez..
But i shan't test e limits..

2nd day:
MJ again!!
BBQ!!
FIRE!!
Truth or dare..
N e highlight was night cycling!!
so fun!!
my very first night cycling..
first time i saw trans.. hehe..
Though ber got injured.. hope u r ok!!
it lasted til 5pm..
Nasi Lemak!!
got ber's bike on e way back..
great excerise sia..
Loved everymoment of it!!

Then 1h of sleep b4 packing up to go home..
Went back with Weebing..
Thanks for e shoulder pillow..
haha.. Will there b a next time?? haha..
May u get your license soon!

then tuition from 12-5pm..
METAL WOMAN!!

someone approached me for J2 Chem tuition..
$45/h.. #360/mth.. Take it up??

Then wat bout e P4 kids??
Not sure if i can realli put it down..
Had a bond with them..
What bout e Sec4 kids??
E age gap was closer.. crapped so much e other day..
as time dragged on, e closer we r..
oh no..
but e current pay cant cover my hall expenses..
Money for survival or responsibility?

6 more weeks to QP n SF event..
Jia you Lin!!
7 more weeks to midterm!!

Believe that everything will go smoothly!!
My timetable is not fixed yet..
Wed HP802!!.. Who will give it to me??

Juz rumbling again

2008-01-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

Saw this poster..

Reputation is what others think of you.
Personality is what you seem to be.
Character is what you really are.

so what really matters is character..
but in present-day society, what realli matters??

Wonder what had gotten into guys these days..
im veri flattered.. thank you..
then, there will always b a but..
haha.. sorry.. n thanks..

I suppose its time to b on a diet..
i had prob spend $300??
on christmas presents.. birthdays..
oh no.. time to refrain myself from shopping centres..
and cards.. haha.. oops..

My throat is no longer sore..
but my voice is not mine..
wonder how long it will take..
i want my voice back..

cant wait for chalet!!
i hav yet to tell my mum..
hehe.. oops..

it had been 6 mths..
exactly 6 mths..
u r missed..
i wun forget that morning..

Im utterly disappointed in fab..
it was stupidity on my part to b frank n tot too highly of him..
failed to realise that misconceptions may arise..
now it had spread..
guess its wrong on my part to assume things..

guess it takes incidents like these to knock into me how the person really is..
to think i hav been trying to knock sense into him all sem..
its truely a waste of saliva..
well, its not my life anyway..
i was too naive..

but i wun explain..
coz it will only make things worse..
who will they believe??
it was meant for forensic onli..
whateva..

serve as a reminder on what to b kept private..

watched knocked up..
suppose its a M18 movie..
it juz stereotyped..
onli ppl with proper jobs can hav children n a wife..
or is it not?
trying to pass ard e 'right' values?
reminded me of a reality show.. bout exchanging wives..

may lady luck b on my side during the add-drop period!!
haha..
Sch is starting!! so excited!!
Another busy sem coming right up..

Bye 07!

2008-01-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

so glad that 07 is gone..
hope that e omens are gone too..
haha.. oh well..

Its a new beinging..
so much to do!!
Cant wait.. so excited..

wateva's done cant b undone..

Change wat u cant accept..
accept wat u cant change..

got my results e other day..
did terrible for my forensic..
PPl who onli attended e last lect can get A lo..
dammit..
happy that i got A+ for my chem.. hehe..
GPA is bout 4.72/5.. gd?
so-so lo.. could hav been better..
oh well..
i still hav e next sem to up it!!
there is rm for improvement.. haha

SO happy that yuan de got a shop!!
its so cool..
wish i can b part of e adventure..
its not going to b easy..
but its not impossible.. =)

Even happier for dine!!
Congratz!!
Dream come through!!
I wish i will get e scholarship n meet u there!!
Believe in e power of dreams!!
Everything will work out well!!

Life do juz go on..

E next 2 months r going to b busy!!
having a hall musical production coming up..
n e studend fund plan..
both r on e same day!!
oops..

wat electives to take??Sianz!!

had too busy a hol..
sorry!!
so so sorry!!

cant forget an analogy..
To prevent ants from getting to e sweets..
get a wrapper!
or store in e fridge..

Which approach will u go for??

Time to do some housekeeping.. haha..

Happy New YR!!

FOCUS

2007-12-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

I hope that weicong's blog is updated..
seem like im not e onli one in a rough patch.. haha..

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Tried e quiz that i saw on his blog..

quite accurate leh

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haha.. its accurate coz e words r too nice.. haha
guess ppl juz need things like this every now n then to remain focus..

Last Wk

2007-12-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

Wow.. time passed in a flash..
i hav no idea wat i did..
So many tots that i wanted to pen..

been involved in Inter-Hall Games..
resulting in a tan.. haha..
fitter?? i dunno..

i no longer seem to noe wat i noe..
seem to hav lost focus..
prob due to e slacking..
seem to b pushing everybody away..
seem to want some time alone..
which seem possible..
yet i wasted it on redundant stuff..
wat m i doing??

seem to b so much more judgmental..
more self-centred..
coz im too cooped up?
i dunno..

Do i sound sad??
i dunno..
prob juz a passing phase??
i dunno..

Juz realised that when certain comments r made..
it tends to hav e opposite effect..
like when i comment on others..
m i in any position to say it??
it can b takent as im trying to act smart..
rite or not??

sounds like a fear to express myself now eh..
i dunno..

stressed??
not used to e free time??
how is that possible??

im thinking too much again??

Hols??

2007-12-04T12:51:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating..
TIme is not on my side..

well.. erm..
i had moved room..
got a crazy roomie.. haha..
well, hopefully it will turn out great..

Survived e tests n exams period..
so many things to revise...
e first time i fell ill during exam period..
Thankfully there was onli biochem paper left..
filled e whole bin with 'tissue'..
haha..
Huihui n jing jing were so sweet to give me chicken essence..
so touched!! thanks..
hav to think of wat to get for them..
n my bro.. n my roomie.. n christmas..
there goes my pocket..

well.. for e exams..
made a stupid mistake with intermediate value theorem.. ARGH..
blocked for a while for econs.. hope didnt fare too badly..
so amazed that econs will b of that standard..
physic chem n biochem was ok..
forensic was stupid.. i felt so dumb after e paper..
as if i dun hav any common sense..
hope it wun pull down my grade too much.. haiz..

Juz finished planning next sem timetable..
quite slack leh.. 2 pass-fail mod, n 1 MCQ mod out of 6..
haha.. oh well..
should i take another econs mod??
mayb should take it easy eh..
tues is sooo slack !! but wed n thurs end so late..

E first time that i will b EXHAUSTING my hols..
its usually juz slacking at home..
12h of sleep daily..
in front of e com..
in front of e tv..
help out ard e house..

looks like im stuck in sch for e weekdays..
hav yet to put netball match timings in..
feelin e guilt..
for not being ard home..
but it seems that whenever im at home,
i will irritate my mum someway or another..
sianz..

so when can i put my guard down??
its getting heavy..

had badminton training..
my arm is killing me..
next time will b more intensive..
when im such a noob..
haiz..
Hope that there r enough girls for hockey..
oh well..

i hav not meet up for interact exco for so long..
OP frens..
AJ frens..
sorry..

n my friendster n facebk is collecting junk n dust..
haha.. oops.. time is not on my side..
well, nth to complain bout..
coz i dun wan it to b..
life suddenly bcame veri unpredictable..
with so many deaths here n there..
seems to b omens .. for whom?? i dun wann noe..
since i onli get to live once.. juz enjoy!!
n wanna learn more things..

list to learn:
Marketing n Jap during Special term!!
ballroom dancing.. finally found e website to learn in sch..
hehe.. so shiok!!
life is bout learning..
cant wait to learn.. but there is time for everything!!

now hav to learn e carolling songs..
hehe.. thank goodness mine is e melody part..
they say its easier.. but hav to b loud..
n hav to read e bk on sounds n lights..
n source for mics..
n do odac flyer..
haha.. gtg.. hope to c u ppl ard..

Highlights

2007-10-15T08:32:00.000+08:00

This should be called highlights of my life so far..
What a dramatic change to events..
It juz changed my view in a split second..

Anyway.. to start off..
allow me to recount e happier memories b4 they slip away..

1. Had lots of break last wk..
But i ended up sleeping.. oh no!!
Hav to make up for lost time..
Exams coming la. haiz..

2. Morning evening get-away..
Directly after econs lect, a grp of 9 of us..
travelled to JP for dinner at e foodcourt..
then we entered e arcade to go crazy!!
Next stop was e lan hub..
it was super run down..
Whichever com i wanted to use, e mouse will b down..
haha.. then e lady at e counter was so pissed..
then.. we played CS til 11..
so shiok..
Juz wat i need to de-stress..

i suppose some r juz fun..
but not one u will choose to work with..
e way things work r so diff..
But thankfully..
i found out another side of them..
prob a side that i can endure but not prefer..

Felt so vulnerable last nite..
a group of male seniors who were pissed..
thankfully, not at me..
but it was creepy even though..

Then i thought to myself..
who did i thought of when im so vulnerable..
no one.. coz my mind was in a blank..
i guess its time like this when u hope that there is a pair of arms where u can run into..
its time like this when u wish to feel safe..
though its not like e seniors will b rough.. haha..

its so scary..
im having maths mid-term this sat..
Biochem, organic n econs next wk..
n i hav meetings on mon wed thurs this wk..
juz great..

Felt better 'saying' it out..
time to head back to e books..

Jiahui!! not onli my friendster..
but my facebook n blog is collecting dust..
wanna help me clean??haha..
come out someday leh....

The most impt part!!
Happy Birthday Shifeng n Jiahui!!
Best of luck when exploring the life ahead..

2007-09-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

life is a cycle..
cycle of wat??

some say its karma..

to me..

its prob more..
make use..

im making use of frens
to kill boredom..
to feel wanted..

n im being made used for similar purposes too..

now it does sound like karma..
wat goes ard comes ard..

so let it b..
there will b ans..

Juz a Journal

2007-09-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

HEee..
i did not keep my promise to update..

Well.. i missed victoria's bdae party..
which turned into a cake fight..
must hav been fun..
haha..

Well.. got back the marks for the tests last wk..
Not very satisfactory though..
haiz.. time to concentrate!!
If e others can do it, so can i!
First-class Honours!!
Here i come!!

To look on e brighter side..
there is room for improvement..haha
yup!! its juz a start.. 3 more yrs to go..

Went for OG BBQ at ecp on tues night..
hav to thank e chefs of e day for feeding e loafers.. haha
it was fun though..
Fab's sparkler formation was drown by e rising tide..
haha.. poor thing..
N we played Indian poker..
I was e unlucky one!!
N had to drink e most..
I was e little Red Lobster that night..
argh,.. thank goodness they didnt take my photo..
or i will turn red again.. haha..

Then i walked from ecp to suntec!!
can u imagine that??
do i sound like a mad asshole??
haha.. well.. it took us 3h..
i guess its coz i was not veri sober..
haha.. oh well..
hav to burn away all e fats..

Had so much gd food sia..
sat- saki
sun-steamboat
mon- western
tues- bbq
thurs- korean

haha.. im so glad that im in Singapore..
haha.. Food paradise!

Minli moved out..
Gd or Bad?
dunno n dun wanna noe..

Juz got used to stayin in e hall..
Now, i hav to adapt again..

im so burdened by wat ppl may think..
juz ignore?
Its not possible when we r in a society..

Everything comes with a price..
Juz like having a public blog..
do 1 hav to b rational all e time?
i dunno..

I come at a price too..
e oppo cost is e hour that u can spend on something or someone else..
These days..
We r all so busy..
i cant promise anyone anything..
Hence, e price tag on me is dropping..

Is being accomodating e right choice?
at lest im not a wilful girl..
but then.. ppl will gradually forget your presence..

Oh well..
all i know is..
i will try my best to b there..
keeping e promise of a fren..

happening sia

2007-09-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. i realised that my old neighbour stays in my hall too..
hehe.. can share cab or wateva.. haha..
juz like wat we did after dinner n dance e other night..
i wasnt dressed to the nineties..
who cares.. not like im e main character..
it was dun though..

anyway.. eehong's bro is in my hall too..
wow.. how small singapore is..

mid terms are coming..
one on thurs..
creepy..
3 next wk..
n b4 that, there is the odac family day!!
then hols!!
Zzzzz....

Lots of changes are happening all ard..
So lost at times..
How to maximise the use of time in hall?
There is time for everything..
or there is shift for everything?

Take it as Im being selfish at the moment..
Not wanting to b decisive..
but juz not now..

Im begining to fall in love with the lovable library..
i guess im used to my mugging habits..
wat if i turned into a nerdier geek?
oh no.. haha..

But, this time round..
there is hall life n odac..
in addition to e OP gang..
yea!!

been reading a bk recently..
taking my time to digest..

haha.. in e meantime..
look out for omens n signs!!
but my heart seemed to b numbed..
not talking to me anymore..
its e brain fault..

wat if a guy was about to strike a conversation with u..
n another guy calls?
haha..
take it at face value??

frens.. gd frens.. close frens..
wat a fine line it is..
muz we always define everything?

then how poor is poor?

One should never b contented..
if u r, then there wun b improvements..
then wun we foreva b under stress?
but arent we suppose to enjoy e process?
wat does my life holds for me??

It is my childhood dream..
so is this where i hav to head?
m i on e rite track?

wat does being rejected for e scholarship mean?
this is not e track for me?
or its juz an obstacle?

i dunno..
my mind is filled with so many tots..
mayb i will update after e last quiz..

in e meantime..
Biochem!! Physic!! Organic!! Forensic!!

2007-09-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

Studying in NTU is so amazing..
I met my P2 classmate!!
N we can still recognise each other!!
Coool eh??

N i saw Zijia..
on e bus to sch at bout 10+ at night..
so coincidental!!
haha.. wonder who else i will meet..

Friends come n go??
Will u rmb me 10 yrs down e road??
I noe i will try.. heeee..

I feel so out of touch with e news..
Oh man.. sharks..
I hav yet to find out wat e PM said..
sharks.. AHhh!!

attended a seminar e other day with chenglim..
totally amazing..
Hav yet to ponder over it..
hope i dun forget e contents so soon..
hav to prepare for Mid-term.. Arhh!!

Trying not to let negativity get to me..

A mth...

2007-09-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

It had been a mth sia..
Well.. sch started..
It had not been easy adapting to e new environment..
new timetable.. new lifestyle..
its veri fun though..

Met lots of newe frens.. coursemates.. lab partners..
haha.. N all e freedom!!
E first time in my life that i went clubbing..
First to Zouk for yuan ye's bash..
then to MOS for my hall bash..
followed by k boz session til 6am!!
with fabian derrick zhirong yiqing peizi n ai lian..
now considering whether to go for dnd or not..
N i got into odac sub-comm..
though i didnt turn up for any activities at all..
haha.. so tyco..
my life sounds so fun now eh..

But its not gonna b easy balancing..
Hav yet to ask how is e schedule of QP like..
there is a minor in entreprenuer..
dunno to take it up or to work?
how?? wat if there is QP stuff or odac stuff??

my timetable for mon n tues r like so relaxed..
at e cost of my wed thurs n fri being heavy..
i can even skip mons.. haha
im goin to a seminar tml..
so looking forward to it..

so far.. e cost of being in this new chapter of life..
is less time with family..
n friends.. I will try to b there!!

had a pri sch outing..
oh no.. i forgot to update e list..
shit..
oops..

n i met up with serxing!!
Alison!! when u free?!?!?!
haha.. im planning to visit her at NUS on some tues..
u can??

n there was dine's party!!
almost perfect attendance leh!!
it had been sooo long..
n when will b e next time??

i went for the ARMY OPEN HOUSE!!
chong chai was on duty..
haha.. didnt play much though..
no more goody bags too..
haiz..
there were quite a few ok lookin guys though..
haha..
not like there is a lack of guys in my life now..

sooolong!

2007-08-09T17:07:00.000+08:00

It had been so long since i updated..

Its all e new Harry potter bk n hall camp fault..
haha.. but i enjoyed myself!!

i finished e bk in 9 hrs!!
it was a gd thriller..
kept me on my toes..
haha..
many hav different opinions bout e ending..
if u cant accept it, then come up with your own version!!
some of e fan fictions online r amusing too..
haha..

then i had to packed my room..
prepare the stuff to b brought into my new hostel!!
n there was a minor rearrangement of my furniture..
- that is an understatement.. haha..

Initially, e hostel rm is a haven for bugs and dust..
haha..
after much efforts by my family n li's family..
its fit for e 2 xiao jie to stay in!!
heee.. Thanx for everything!!

then had to give tuition on sun n pack for Hall camp!!
well.. i dun hav much time to elaborate on e details..
But it is a fun-packed one!!
e organising team took lotS of efforts into planning..
im amazed..
e ogls took extra lotS of efforts to take care of our welfare!!
Thanx Mavis n Wei Jie!!
e camp is full of amazing race like games in town, chinatown, sentosa, east coast park and ntu..
can u imagine how much i ran??
n i hav not been excerising for so long..
thankfully i was spared from some mud stuff coz of lasik.. keke..
n not forgetting e SA n zk who encouraged me all e way..
thanx ppl..
e first time in my life that im e slowest leh!!
wat a huge blow.. haha..

Though it was physically demanding ( at least to me!)
But e whole OG had fun!!
there were lots of team building games coupled with jokes and recently, scandals..
haha..
n lots of sabo games.. i prefer to forget that part..
haha..
looks like my hall life will b quite eventful..
so looking forward to it!!
its realli comfortaing to know that when i walk out, there is a chance that i will stumbled upon familiar faces..

Cant wait til e guys enter uni too..
hope that by then im still in e hostel!!
then we can stay tgt!!
it will b so fun!!

JiaHui Dine n Kat!! come n stay over!!
bring sleeping bags though.. haha..
there is space for a mahjong table in my rm!!
* hint hint *

Now im in e midst of planning my timetable..
so vexed over it..
oh well.. im sure things will work out.. hee

Cant wait for sat!!
AJ interact Exco outing!!
PAm!! y meet us later??
tell me!!

n e following sat..
im having pri sch gathering!!
Yeah!! So many activities..

BUT.. i still hav make up lectures on e 3 coming sat..
Thus, i need all these activities for motivation..

N.. this means that i wun b able to meet e OP gang n my family for quite some time..
Sorry ppl.. i will try my best to come!!
n i do miss u lots..
esp when i see your photos on my table..
Take Care ppl..

hmmm

2007-07-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

finally everything is over..
seem so definite..
done all i can..
its all so fast..
oh well..
cant change anything..

got bitten by a mosuito on sun..
accidentally left a cup with water..
oh sharks..
oh well..
* law of attraction!!**

Sorry pal..
supposed to meet u..
heee..
but its nth alreadi..
dun worry..

my papa bdae was juz over..
went to mushroom pot..
it cost a bomb..
prob will never go there again..

Amazed that i found someone who had e same kind of thinking..
though we r world's apart..
its not meant to b??
By reading between lines..
there is smth there..
yet responsibility prevails..
who knows.. mayb it wun end like that..
oh well..

my room had been through a huge transformation..
haha.. hav to pack..
n e hostel!!
haiz.. things r so messy..

wanted to go for e hall camp..
to know my new neighbours better..
but they didnt send me e letter for it..
n didnt reply my email regarding it..
so i kind of tot that its over..
then li says can register when we take e key..
oh man.. to go or not to go??

second guessing

2007-07-21T15:02:00.000+08:00

Thanx for the no reply..
Should i learn to read more into it?
Postively or negatively?
Should i include the recent actions too?

then again, nobody is obliged to reply anyway..

Hmmm.. here i am second guessing..
This isnt me..

All im looking forward to now is for sch to start..
For this long awaited new chapter of my life..
Where changes will take place i suppose..
Mayb where i will b more at ease..
Coz i will b doing wat i love!!

meanwhile.....
i hav no idea wat to do..

2007-07-20T16:34:00.000+08:00

5月19日真心的说客

5月19日出生的人精力十分充沛，因此必须学习如何加以控制，并往正面的方向引导。对这些拥有很强的领导潜能的人来说，这一点是十分重要的。虽然他们必须花费很多时间去尝试，同时经历身体和情绪的试炼，不过，只要目标能够确立，便可以聘任头地。他们的精力就像大自然的天气一样，浑然天成且富有爆发力。这样的精力最适合用于长远的计划，如建立社会或家庭生活的结构等。

[im so blown away.. haha.. im forever full of energy.. i hav to say its true.. i can always seem to b attentive no matter how boring it is if i want to.. i hav been thru lots too.. leadership skills eh.. hmm.. e last line sounds so serious.. mayb i will b the first female prime minister!! haha.. i hav never thought bout being into politics.. haha.. im going nuts for being shut for so long]

5月19日出生的人通常是自学有成的人，而且喜欢采取自然的方式做事。但当他们太过注重逻辑和推理，而将直觉能力束之高阁时，恐怕就会遭遇困境。在这度深入地思考总是之后，便可能走偏，离原先的主题太远。其实，他们应该尽量顺着内心的感受走，因为那就像是船上的指南针一样，会指引他们航行于正确的航线上。

[does that mean im smart?? haha.. means im too into logical thinking.. well, i do always go off the point n start mumbling according to jas..]

这天出生的人不论男女，通常会有一个同性且较年长的强势人物，成为他们生命中最重要的人；如果是在性格形成的时期遇到这样的人，这个人便会成为他们了解整个世界的导师。虽然5月19日出生的人大可在书本或艺术作品中找到灵感，但除非在现实生活中遇到一个真正了解他们的人，否则，他很可能陷入一片茫然，不知该如何善加利用自己的天分，更不知道该如何才能在社会中占有一席之地。

[i hav not found e person.. i hav to admit im quite loss n im juz trying my luck here n there.. trying not to look back in e future n regret.. i dunno..]

那么他们的天赋究竟是什么呢？一是沟通的能力，而这也是最重要的；第二是非凡的领导力；第三则是能说服朋友、家人和同事，什么时候才是采取适当行动的时候。这天出生的人当中发展得较好的，通常拥有说客般的好口才，成为他们强而有力的工具；但发展得不那么好的，恐怕就不免沦为油腔滑调或肤浅了。也就是说，他们迷人且具说服力的天赋，可能使他们具备了启迪人心的能力；不过，也可能是最糟的状况，变成一名骗术高超的人。

[means im charismatic!! m i?? so if im broke n jobless, i can switch job to b a cheat!! haha.. so lame..]

5月19日出生的人，明显地需要顺从于某种精神上的训练，以及一个非常有条理、运作得很好的社会架构。有时候，他们会因过度关心自己或别人物质上的满足，而被淮物主义的网给网住了。对这些来说，最困难的事就是要避免被绊住，才能保持行动的自由。所以，如何同时拥有安定，又能维持自由之身，便是这些人生命中最主要的挣扎；也就是说，他们必须学着在责任范围内创造自由，否则将会面临重大挫折。

[should i b thankful that im in singapore? means that i will die if i dun hav freedom?? haha.. but freedom is impt!! e time alone..]

幸运数字和守护星
5月19日出生的人都受到数字1（1+9=10，1+0=1）和太阳的影响。由于他们位于48区间中活力的交界带，再加上同时受数字1与太阳的强烈影响，所以，必须谨防被强而有力的活力错误引导，否则恐怕会为家庭或个人的人际关系带来灾难。

[im a hazard!! bware ppl..]

受数字1影响的人喜欢当老大、富有野心、不喜欢受拘束。虽然金牛的主宰行星是金星，然而在5月的这个时候，也可以渐渐感受到双子座发挥的水星效应。所以，5月19日出生的人应该小心，不要太依恃心灵的力量，慎防心浮气躁、情绪不稳定。对他们来说，学习让自己的身心冷静下来，是最重要的课题。

[well, everybody has a temper rite?? haha.. is being ambitious a gd thing??]

健康
5月19日出生的人必须小心他们毁灭性的力量，千百万对自己或别人的伤害。同时，由于早年的身体并不好，因此必须靠着坚强的意志才能克服。不幸的是，他们偏偏又很容易出意外，因此，在从事运动或激烈的体能活动时，最好能尽量小心谨慎些。当然，开车或出游时，更不能大意。

[i hav always been very careless.. haha.. thank goodness i dun hav a driving license..]

但话说回来，对这些人的健康最有益的，还是体能运动。这是因为他们的本性天生就活力充沛，所以会有这样的需求。如果忽略了这项需求，可能会导致各种身心的不适，而且大多与压力有关。此外，这天出生的人如果想寻求和谐安宁的生活，就应该知道，不好的饮食习惯对身体造成的不良影响有多大。

[no wonder i hav the mood swing plus im down with a sore throat.. coz i hav not been excerising!! haha.. talk bout nutrition.. rite..]

建议
有时候，别人想怎么做，就任他们去吧！试着别反应过度，也别过度干预。认为最好的，就照着去做，让自己拥有自由的空间。当感觉自己快冒火时，就远离那些烦人的事物吧！一生中，至少放任自己的感情一次。

[it will b hard.. being a fren, i wun wan u to b hurt rite? then again.. it will b my motto now.. dun understand e last line at all.. wat is it hinting?? forbidden love?? haha.. ]

名人
胡志明(Ho Chi Minh)已故越南共产常领导人，革命家。

香港演员秦祥林，1970年代走红台湾的文艺片小生，代表作《女朋友》。

中国国画大师张大千，有“五百年来一大千”之称。

著名物理学家吴健雄，他不仅名扬国际学术界，弟子杨振宁、李政道更曾获诺贝尔奖。

台湾歌星赵咏华，成名作《越飞越高》。

韩丝贝莉(Lorraine Hansberry)美国剧作家，曾获戏剧评论奖，作品为《太阳下的一粒葡萄干》，也是公民权的改革者，34岁去世。

英国物理学家波诺(Edward de Bono)，发展出侧面思考的概念。

威廉阿斯特二世(William Waldorf Astor Il)，出生于美国的英国企业家、政治家，是《观察家》报的老板，为南希的前夫。

澳洲歌剧女高音梅尔芭(Nellie Meba)，以嗓音纯净、清新，及演唱花腔女高音时的漂亮装饰音闻名。

[will my name be up there in e future?? haha]

塔罗牌
大秘仪塔罗牌的第19张“太阳”，可说是所有牌中最好的一张。它象征知识、省略和幸运，也代表值得受人尊敬和回报。这张牌正立时，代表清澈、人际和谐及美好的名声等正面特质；但倒立时，则暗示了骄傲、自负和虚伪等不利的负面特性。

[which side is it?]

静思语
有些事人力可为；有些事只能听乎天命！

[means i shouldnt take things too hard?]

优点
爆发力强、活力充沛、公正。

[i sound like a energetic judge!! haha.. when e impression of a judge is a calm person..]

缺点
控制欲强、容易瓦解、易受挫折。

[too much self discipline is bad too?? failure is e mother of success!!!]
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how true is it?
but i will listen to its advice..
do check yours out!!
http://astro.sunvv.com/366/

ASSUME

2007-07-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

I tot this will onli happen when one is attached..
mayb im thinking too much..

realised tt ppl always make assumptions..
based on their understanding of e other..

then again.. ppl change all e time..
i guess i hav not been keeping up..

so dun ask me to make any..
my future responses will b mayb..
seeing is believing..

i dun even understand myself..
how can u?

Jus like li's questionaire..
at what time of e day do i feel best?
i hav no idea.. it varies.. so how?

how m i seated when im relaxing?
like now?

wats e last sleeping posture?
it had always been changing..

so dun assume anything..
**its very hurting**
* Esp when its gd frens who think so negatively of u *

Time to say gd-bye i guess..

China

2007-07-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

Anybody wanna eat cardboard stuffed buns??
haha.. its so creepy wat they do for money these days..
wonder how e olympics will turn out..
hmm..

well.. relatively, singapore is a better place to live in..
its onli everynow n then that we hav cases like e blood bank..
haha.. compared to India.. where there is endless news to report that they dun even include news from other countries.. haha..
or China..
or our neighbouring countries with e crimes to control..
or the beheading incidents..

so look on the bright side that we r here..

What major is right for u?

2007-07-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

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It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

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Biology/Chemistry/Geology

94%

Education/Counseling

81%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

English/Journalism/Comm

81%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

81%

HR/BusinessManagement

75%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

69%

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69%

Visual&PerformingArts

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haha.. looks like my interest r relatively diverse eh..
history n biology..
history entrails me..
but i guess onli biology can feed me..

Pissed

2007-07-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

Was damn furious this morning..
some brainless action..
i get fired at when i do it..
n i cant do it to her..
n somebody else hav to make up for it..
so damn pissed..

Well.. my dad bribed me with a dinner at ICHIBAN at causeway..
hmmm.. as they always say.. get the stomach first..

so i hav been to causeway point for 3 days in a row..

oh ya.. i had lost 2kg since JC2..
well.. mayb coz muscles r heavier than fats..

but i do realise that for these 3 days..
i hav been feasting..
if i were to go on that machine again..
would i b heavier alreadi?? haha..
at least my daddy wun say that he wasted money on me..

but i do not use up e eneergy..
leaving my brain hyper active in e middle of e night..
the time when i integrate fantasy into my life..
dreaming wat would i b like if i knew leonardo da vinci or mona lisa..
or if i had lived in e 1800s in London..
or in e aids villages..
i had always wanted to go there..

esp since tech is so advanced now..
i was reading a bk bout London in e 1800s..
while watching e sci-fic movie on earth's core..
n the condor heroes..
cool eh..

i wanna travel.. look ard at e real world..
we r all so protected here..
yet many r displeased..
so many incidents here r so minor..

r we impt?
or r e less fortunate more impt?
or e bigger events happening all ard e world?

Global warming..
now then they try to make a big fuss out of it..
though Al Gore had emphasized it on soo many occassions..
e power of e media..

N wats up with e green tops??
will it reduce e CO2 levels?
wun actions speak louder??
mayb like a mass planting of trees or smth?
e recycling thingie..
keep it going!!
support e public transport..
or cycle!
wun it b more significant?

i understand that a small effort on our part may not make a diff..
but wat bout everybody making e effort tgt?

then again.. is it already too late?
then again.. is it juz a cycle?
then again.. wun it b nice to die tgt?
then everything now will seem so insignificant..

wat if e bees die out??
n we hav 4 yrs left??
continue studying? play?

Ping!

2007-07-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

Jiahui got tix to go to e NDP reheasal!!
N i cant go..
i had onli been to e P5 one..
so sad...
muz hav been soo high!!
i wanna go..

oh well..

i still met jiahui in e morning.. haha..
thank goodness we dun hav to join in e super long Q..
hee.. settled it way faster than i thought..
should i sleep more.. it was a rainy morning lo!!
haha..

then met ping to go n sing!!
didnt see her for more than 2 yrs!!
oh man!!..

well.. she is leading a gd life anyway..
but she had chosen e workaholic path..
hope that it wun b at e expense of her health..
bout time she listen to e doc!!
well.. no matter wat happen in e future..
it will b over in a blink!!
coz time flies!!
SMILE!!

had a gr8 time singing..
though it was short..
but did chose e hard ones..
n went for e notes to vent everything out..
so fun!!
wonder when will e next time be..

n didnt go out with mal n e others..
haix.. didnt see them for so long!!
next time i will b there!!
missed ya lots!!

Recently

2007-07-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

Been rotting at home soooo damn much..
so damn much that my voice suffered.. haha
coz my mum will watch her shows n nobody else is at home..
+ i dun talk to myself..
so its still muffled..
n i cant project my voice like b4 anymore..
so i sound so gentle now.. haha..

i rmb that some reckoned that my voice is quite whiney..
then i thought to myself..
izzit??
Prob e rather high-pitched 'hey' every now n then..
n e 'hee' which mean im up to no gd..
is there more that i dunnoe of??
Do let me know? Thanx..

Hav been soooo coped up at home..
so much so that i can finish a 500+ page novel on Mona Lisa in a day..
haha..
been so cut off from everybody..
no internet coz of e com.. haiz..

went for the medical checkup today..
nwith pearlyn n mel n Mel's fren..
So nice of her dad to give us a lift into e sch..
i didnt c e 2 of them for more than half a yr!!
Ever since e last gathering in DEC!!
OMG.. haha..
so weird eh..

i guess some frens do come n go..
n e strength is determined by e % of time that we spend with e other person..
kind of relieved that though i dun talk to some often..
it aint so bad.. hee..
glad that its still on friendly terms..

i guess as time goes by..
we will meet new ppl here n there..
No harm having frens everywhere rite?
esp since when there is a higher chance to bumping into them now?
but keep those that u noe will b there for us close..
thats wat everybody says..
but everybody juz hav 24h daily..
split among family, work, personal time n friends..
how much can we spare??

thats y im feeling guilty for talking to some now.. haiz..
like my Pri Sch mates..
Ny pals..
Interact Exco..
Aj Zhu Zhus..
Orientation groupS!!
oh man..
Sounds like i lost alot..
Mayb when im no longer quarantined, i will start catching up..
i guess ppl with diff lifes now moved on..
so jealous that kahing still meet up for Pri Sch Gathering..
When will it b 6D gathering again??
I will see Ms Koo's 2 children!!

Anyway..
to others, it may b like i dun care bout it..
Mayb even to e xtent that i dun treasure..

i guess everybody experiences this to a certain xtent..
the balance between wanting more frens n keeping old frens..
how to strike a balance?
diff ppl hav diff methods..

But, to me..
i do know that if somebody wanna meet me..
n i cant make it..
i will definitely make e next available date free for e person..
thats juz me.. ok?
thats juz wat i think is right..

ppl hav diff opinions n methods..
juz accept it..
im no saint..
Nobody is here to judge too..
my method may not b e Perfect or the only one..
but thats juz e best arrangement i hav in mind..
its up to u wat u wanna think..

i guess i side-tracked alot..
i finally get to watch transformers today with Pearlyn!!
its very nice!! e adrenaline rush!!
haha..
totally changed my opinion that its a boy-ish movie..
haha.. n we walked up n down e whole CAUSEWAY for 5 times..
haha.. so fun eh!!
bought some tops too..
n we still didnt get e bottle that she is lookin for.. haha..

Deaths

2007-07-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

Well.. a very suitable topic since its
moanday today..

e truth is.. i tear every monday..
haha.. dun ask.. or i will start again..

well.. someone asked hav i gotten over it or not..
i guess i did..
was kind of enlightened..

how cant i esp since i cant do anything at all at home..
so this is e end result..

read bout e death of the rj boy last wk..
im grateful that i outlived him so far..
n comparing my grandpa to him..
he is very very fortunate eh?
that is e reason..

Things that happened many years ago often seem close n nearby to e present, n many things tt happened recently seem as ancient as e bygone days of youth.
-Leonardo da Vinci

this yr had been so eerie..
ppl being crashed by falling trees..
n e relatives of other frens like pam n kel..
e surge in drowning incidents..
n e new dengue strain..

is it juz me??
or e world is turning for the worse??

wats e use of having a blog if u r not gonna b honest??
hmmm..

anyway.. juz a update..
i didnt hav perfect eyesight..
but e doc reassured me that since im so young, e condition will improve.. so i will wish for e best..
but its realli annoying coz its of 2 diff degrees..

Random Rantings

2007-07-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

This had been suffocating me..
I cant stand it anymore!!
Its e cummulative effect..

How can the Chinese in China do that to their own ppl??
Dun they hav conscience??
im totally stumped..

Juz a list that i can rmb so far from my readings..
1. Fake egg ( Brilliant eh?)
2. Toxic milk powder which had destroyed e future of many infants ( with their 1-child policy, how many families r ruined juz like that?)
3. Injected red ink into watermelons to enhance their colour ( Looks can b deceiving eh..)
4. Added black ink into soy sauce due to poor harvest ( their reason for doing so is due to stiff competition.. so? does it mean its morally right?)
5. Forced antibiotics down e throats of ducks by using hoses to increase their weight. ( Here comes bird flu!!)
6. Pumped sewage water into pigs which r over 100 kg by using hose forced down their throats.. ( N we r gonna eat it.. Juz gr8)
7. Polluting their already polluted rivers. (n e rivers r all connected to e sea.. So pray hard..)
8. Eating so many frogs that e frogs in India are endangered.. ( What a miracle!!)

Oh well.. who m i to comment eh?
im juz another soul in this over polluted, over populated and dying earth..
LIfe is short.. so y make it shorter??
Shouldnt we treasure the time??

Then again..
dun they hav conscience..
most of e stuff r done for higher profits..
but dun they noe that its immoral??
or izzit juz me?

Mayb i cannot fully understand their situation at all..
they may b too hungry.. or smth..
mayb an oversight?? ( which i will never believe)

Well..
Im totally grateful that im in Singapore..
Dun hav to worry as much bout e food..

Anyway..e next thing i noe, i will b jailed.. haha..
Nah.. im jus consolidating info picked up from e papers..
with a bit of comments.. haha..

Juz wanna emphasize that im in no position to comment..
juz some ignorant ones.. rite??

Rite...

Law of attraction

2007-06-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

Chenglim showed me a video e other day on the law of attraction..
i chose to believe..
well.. there is no harm in believing in it anyway..

it kind of changed my mentality..

I thought to myself..
if im so free to worry bout all e negative stuff that MAY happen..
Y dun i use the time to think bout all e postive outcomes?
hee..

oh well..

Life hav to go on no matter wat rite?

is there anything wrong in being overly optimistic??

haha.. hope it doesnt translate to over confidence..

Oh well..

Met up with Hao Ren n Ee Teng on fri nite @ DayBreak!!
Didnt see ee teng for so long le..
Kind of forgot how we use to joke ard n e funny conversations..
haha.. oh man.. he is still as corny as ever..
N Pam came after work leh..
I realli wanna go Novena n shop..
boohoohoo..

then met up with li for erm.. high tea..
haha..
actually.. i wasnt even suppose to b out.
haha.. but i sneaked out nonetheless..
thanx for the apple pie!!
b more postive k??
im sure that we will get a rm that we like..
coz we applied early.. hee..
so relax!!

went for eye examination..
now i hav to start to prepare myself mentally..
feel better after telling gary how freaky it is..
haha.. thanx gary!!
Do hope that u can abandon e 'fake leg' soon!!
Boring to b at home for a mth eh..
im gonna experience it soon..

e surgery is on tuesday @ 10.30!!
Ahhh!!
cant play with water for a month!!
hav to avoid dusty n crowded areas..
drink more water n rest..
rite.. haha..
thankfully i cant cancel my wed tuition..
but e poor boy paid e fees for e whole mth n there hav been only 1 lesson..
e tuition centre gained so much..
argh..

I hav my eyes on Dell XPS M1210!!
Its on promotion now..
Hope its up to my expectation..
heez.. cant wait to get my hands on it..
Muz buy x stuff by July!!
haha

try to smile!

2007-06-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

OMG! i cant believe it!!
looked thru my blog n realised that it's all bout how down my life is going to be..
i prob should not keep that attitude up anymore..
Rite?

N i didnt even mention a thing bout sat..
how can i..
haha.. its better late than never..
sorry Hao Ren!

had to wake up so early in the morning..
(actually, im in no position to complain.. haha)
then go to daybreak..
the morning was so chaotic!
n e poor volunteers hav to wait sooo long..
oops.. sorry..
but hav to thank Pam's fren for the buns..
the first aid team for the puffs..
n e pink dolphins!!

the kids were everywhere!!
haha.. in e rm, outside , toilet.. haha

then we finally pair up e volunteers with the kids n set off to the bus!!
On to the Zoo!!
there was this 7yr-old diabetic girl under my charge..
my heart went out to her..
she had been like that since birth..
which prob means that she will never ever b able to feast..
For that, we should treausre our health..

then e groups separated n went on to do e quiz!
took quite a lot of animal photos..haha..
took with pam n charles too..
was thankful that no one called me..
which meant that there were no missing kids..
haha.. at least that is from my bus..
heard that there were 2 mising kid from charles' bus..
thankfully all came back safe n sound..

poor hao ren had blisters as she was wearing new sandals..
n she is soooooooooo nice that she still suffered e pain n walk ard e zoo for me!!
so touched!!
anyway, that pair of shoes is very nice!!
i wanna go novena square to shop too!! haha..

the whole journey was smooth to me..
i kept on counting the no of ppl in my bus n it always doesnt telly..
argh.. prob something wrong with my eyes..
but 2 of e top 3 teams r from my bus!!
so proud of them!!
n i forgot to return them their QUIZ!!
ahhh!!..

my fav animal: Mousedeer!!

haha.. so cute!!

Thankfully it wasnt raining in e morning when they r trying to complete e quiz..
some of the kids played in water playground in their poncho!
how innovative..
but it did drizzle a little later n they hav to rely on umbrella..
haha..
we bought adult size ones for the kids..
so it does look like its too big for some..
haha.. was so afraid that they may trip over.. haha..
so cute eh.. took a photo too.. haha..
they look like a happy family together..
haha.. so cute.. esp e boyboy.. i think he is oso called jiajie..

thats wat i rmb so far..
gonna see pam tml..

smaller stomach?

2007-06-21T14:11:00.000+08:00

i cant even finish a sundae ytd afternoon..
oh man..

In e past, i can hav 2 big bowls of noodles for lunch n im super full with juz 1 now..

anyway.. i finally tried Mac's Apple Pie after 19 yrs of my life..
haha.. now im totally in love with it..

sheng qing mi ma is soo nice!!
im so in love with it now..
haha..

hav to make do with all this now i suppose..
so bored..
actually, im more towards e lazy to go out of e house..
haha..
my bad..

i actually talked sense into somebody ytd leh..
heee.. im a mature person ok!!
so proud of myself ytd..

Operation

2007-06-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

If nth goes wrong..
i will b having my lasik operation on monday..

which means..
i hav to miss friday's dinner with derrick..
i hav to miss sat's sentosa trip..
i hav to miss out orientation camp..
i hav to turn up for outings in my glasses til monday..

its a rush decision..
oh man..
sorry ppl..
i think im gonna spend alot of time at home for a month thereafter..

Li!
i dun think i can go for the sports club orientation camp..
coz e first day is my grandpa's 49th day..
then e 2nd day is my dad's b-dae..

But if i dun go for any orientation camp..
i will miss out all e fun!!
haiz..
sounds like a punishment for a naughty girl..

y dun u juz sign up n hav fun?
play for me too!!
haha..

anyway.. i feel so lost..
dunno wat camp to do go for..
dunno whether to go for any or not even..
dunno which laptop to select..
so many dunnos!!
Ahhhh... mind bursting..

saw that jiahui n kat put up posts full of picx for my bdae..
thanx ppl..
im so touched..

F00d!!

2007-06-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

My appetite had shrunk bout 2 wks ago..
having juz 1 meal per day..
hav yet to really recover..

then went feasting for e past 2 dinners..
Had grilled salmon on sat nite..
then pasta on sun nite..
for father's day..
worry bout my dad's high blood pressure..

if only we can celebrate it with my grandpa 1 last time..
i guess we r all selfish ppl..

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

2007-06-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

really..
but im juz slacking at home..

What Year Were You Born Under?

2007-06-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

You Were Born Under:

You have both a fiery energy and a warm heart.
Your charisma and charm makes it easy for you to influence others.
Lucky in life, you also have a reputation of being lucky in love.
Power hungry, you are determined to get what you want - no matter what it takes.

You are most compatible with a Monkey or Rat.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Lucky in love leh..
no wonder im closer to my dad.. haha

Are You Right or Left Brained?

2007-06-15T20:52:00.001+08:00

You Are 45% Left Brained, 55% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

so im a half half??
how helpful..

my Bdae

2007-06-15T20:04:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: May 19

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

haha.. friends!! please intro me to guys of these dates..
haha.. just kidding..

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

2007-06-15T18:47:00.001+08:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are compassionate, caring, and soothing.
You like other people to depend on you...
In fact, you don't feel right unless you are helping someone out.

Underneath it all, you feel the burden of everyone's problems.
Without your guidance, you fear that many people's worlds would fall apart.
You like to feel in charge, even if it brings you a lot of stress.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

sounds more like minli.. haha..
thats y we r gd frens?? haha..

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2007-06-15T18:45:00.001+08:00

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

one moment im a tomboy n now im very feminine..
rite..

What Should You Study?

2007-06-15T18:39:00.001+08:00

Your Learning Style: Enthusiastic and Imaginative

You are always up for an intellectual challenge - in fact, hard subjects are actually easiest for you.

You Should Study:

Advertising
Astronomy
Biology
Chemistry
Finance
Journalism
Marketing
Physics

What Should You Study?

One moment arts n now more towards sciences..
rite..
so did i make a right choice??
not as if i can change my mind now anyway..

What Time Of Day Are You?

2007-06-15T18:37:00.001+08:00

You Are Sunset

Even though you still may be young, you already feel like you've accomplished a lot in life.
And you feel free to pave your own path now, and you're not even sure where it will take you.
Maybe you'll pursue higher education in a subject you enjoy - or travel the world for a few years.
Either way, you approach life with a relaxed, open attitude. And that will take you far!

What Time Of Day Are You?

m i suppose to infer that it means im old??
haha..
take me far..
far enough to my dream?

What Do People Envy About You?

2007-06-15T18:32:00.001+08:00

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

really??

2007-06-15T18:29:00.001+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.

You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy

Music

Theology

Art

History

Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

How Girly Are You?

2007-06-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

You Are 24% Girly

You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit.
Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way.

How Girly Are You?

2007-06-15T18:19:00.001+08:00

You are a Tomboy Girl!

Instead of flirting, you tend to pal around with the guys you crush on.
And why not? You can hold your own in sports, video games, and gross out contests.
Just make sure and suprise them with a touch of girlishness every once and a while.
Then you'll be treated like the hottie you are - not like one of the guys.

What Kind of Girl Are You?

Who's The True You?

2007-06-15T18:14:00.001+08:00

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you save for a rainy day.

You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

i guess that in life we are all being influenced all the time..
the primary reason behind y i took this test..
im eager to be liked??
i dunno

How Open Are You?

2007-06-15T18:12:00.001+08:00

You Are 59% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

How Open Are You?

izzit true?